For as long as I can remember I have always had all of these “plans”…
- Go to college
- Fall in love with prince charming
- Graduate with BSN/RN
- Work in a hospital making more than enough money to get by
- Get married have a beautiful family
- Spend a week or two each summer going on a mission trip with my little family
- And maybe one day, when I win the lottery, open up a medical clinic in a 3rd world country- taking care of all the sick families and babies
These were always “My Plans”…
To most they sound like great plans, even “Godly plans”…
But that’s where I went wrong… These were never God’s plans… These were always Emily Ann’s plans… And while we’re being honest, I am not even sure I can ever remember a time sitting down and praying about whether or not these were God’s plans for my life…
It was not until the summer after my sophomore year of college when God slowly but surely reminded me the plans I have for myself were not His plans…
That cute boy who I said over and over I would marry one day and have a beautiful little family with… not God’s plan.
Nursing school… All of those years I dreamed about getting accepted into nursing school… finally came true… It wasn’t as great as I dreamed of it being… I failed my first test… I found myself sitting through lectures not engaged… instead of listening about different medications I needed to learn… I found myself in my own little world reading blogs about those who were following God with their whole heart- leaving everything behind to chase after His kingdom and His people…
So as you can probably guess God wins… He always does!
It may have taken a few extra years, lots of tears, and many struggles for me to finally hand over “my plans”… but I did.
And honestly, I’m still not exactly sure what God’s plans are for my life…
All I know is in trying to figure out God’s plan for my life, I have found my heart longs to serve and love on people, my heart hurts for those who would give anything for 2 tests in one week to be their biggest worry, but above all else I have found my heart has a desire for missions.
So here I am.
Send me Lord.
Emily Ann
