First off I have to give a huge shout out and thank you to all of my supporters! To my Prayer Warriors, you guys are with me. Knowing your out there praying for me daily just in the preparation for this trip is amazing to me! To my financial supporter, you all have generously given and gotten me to this point in this journey. When I look at the list I can’t even believe how far we have come in such a short amount of time!
I am currently just over $7,000 and need to be to $10,000 by December 21st!
Personally I would love to be fully funded ($18,700) by January 3rd! That’s the day I leave!!!
So, like I said, I have a deadline, it’s not “coming up” but it’s COMING UP! I feel the pressure constantly to get a little closer but I know the anxiety I feel is from the Devil. He has found a way to get to me. I know it’s him and yet I still sometimes let the thoughts creep into my head. It’s been a constant batter for me lately.
Recently I was prompted to ask God “What can I do to better trust you in the future?” from a devotional on listening prayer.
God answered: “You trust what you know. Be with me and know me. Spend time with me. Sit in my presence. Abide.”
It was one of those moments when I knew the answer was from the Lord.
I had struggled with this anxiety over fundraising so much the week before God told me this. I sought advice from a few people on the matter because it was eating away at me. Then God answered. And boy was it the answer I needed!
This entire process has put me into many situations where I HAVE to rely on God. I know that this is just the beginning and there will be many moments next year where I HAVE to rely on God as well.
I‘ve felt guilty for “trying” to raise the funds And not relying on God and then guilty for not trying and only waiting on God. It was a confusing battle that can finally be over!
God wants me to spend time with Him and partner with Him in this journey. Sure there will still be thoughts that try to squeeze their way into my brain, but I have a God who is bigger than those thoughts. He is bigger than raising over $10,000 by January 3rd and He always takes care of His children!
I hope this was an encouragement to any of you struggling in any way.
God wants to take care of you!
He wants to spend time with you!
Let Him!
