Hey y’all
So, after 2 bus rides, 3 plane flights and 44 hours later I made it to Quito, Ecuador!
I can’t even begin to tell you how tired yet excited I was to finally make it here!
While I was at launch I received a giving key necklace, which is a key with one word on it. The purpose of the key is to give it to someone later on in your race to encourage them, or a way to share with someone how God can use that word to describe how He views them.
Once you have received the key from launch you read the word and see if it has any meaning in your life. The word of the key is what the Lord has to say about you, or what He wants to work within you.
My word was FREE.
When I first got my word, I was kind sad… okay, I was really sad. I thought it would be so cool to get a key that says Beloved on it because when God speaks to me that’s the name He calls me; however, that didn’t happen… bummer right? WRONG!
I had never thought of myself as not being free until I got the key. When I looked at the key I thought ‘well duh I’m free’ but then I took a second to really think about what the word free actually meant. I realized that I wasn’t free at all.
For so long I have felt trapped in my own mind. Feeling as if I can’t be myself. If I were to actually speak my mind and be heard I would be looked down upon because what I felt and had to say wouldn’t matter. The feeling of being trapped in the thought that I could never be loved because of who I am. Feeling trapped in unworthiness. I realized that I wasn’t free. I wasn’t someone people would want to love freely, I wasn’t free of my heartbreak and loneliness. I was trapped in this body I so badly wanted to break free of but didn’t even notice until I was given the word, FREE.
FREE, God says that I am free in Him.
I am free to be just who He made me to be. God has said to me “This is the year of becoming who I have called you to be, and that is to be free in me.”
He’s going to free me of feeling unworthy to worthy.
Freeing me of being called unlovable to Beloved.
Freeing me of being fearful to being bold.
This is going to be a year of childlike faithfulness.
A year of allowing God to take me on a journey of letting go and getting lost in Him. Learning that there’s no shame in giving God all that I can’t keep so that I can take hold of Him, in letting go of what I think I know I will be set free.
I would love it if y’all would be in prayer with me that the Lord completely breaks me down to where I am nothing, and builds me back up to where I am what He has called me to be. Pray that my heart is softened, for my eyes to see and ears to hear Him. Pray that I will never be the same. Pray that I can freely be who God has created me to be, and please pray that I can see and love myself the way God does.
Love y’all, Chooch 🙂
