sometimes, most of the time, we don’t know why God works the way He does.
I guess that is why He is God and we are us.
I’m writing this with a sad heart, confused mind, and full hope.
three nights ago one of our team leader’s gave us some news that he will be going back home this week.
(team leaders- alumni racers who come on the field with us for the first 3 months to help show us “how its dun”)
this blog is about obedience.
Most of the time when we were younger, obedience was about eating vegetables when we hated broccoli, sharing gushers with our cousins, or emptying the dishwasher.
It was doing what we were told, even and especially when we didn’t WANT to do it. well, there’s news i have learned- that is still what obedience is.
This time, i realized that TRUE obedience puts aside our desires and puts priority in the desire of the one to obey. true obedience aligns the heart even if the mind doesn’t understand.
this week we were shown the cost of following God.
It is not easy.
Sometimes it is not fun.
It can hurt a lot.
And we won’t always know why.
But still, we trust-
because He is good.
“Hope that is seen is not hope at all” – Romans 8:24
God is 100% predictable in WHAT He stands for-
…love, faithfulness, joy, peace
God is 100% Unpredictable in HOW he does those things.
…We can pray for something and He answers completely,
in a 180 degree different way than we had hoped.
When Dakota told us the news about him leaving early and not knowing exactly why but knowing it was what He was supposed to do,
i realized i had little faith.
I realized that its EASY to follow God when following Him is FUN and adventurous. it is hard when it actually costs us something to surrender and let go of.
we are people of comfort, self-prioritizing, & laziness
we don’t want the vegetables because they don’t last GOOD, we didn’t want to share the gushers because it meant we had less for OURSELF, and we didn’t want to empty the dishwasher because it required EFFORT.
but we were not made for comfort,
we were made for greatness.
our faith is made clear when it actually costs us something.
my surrender this week is to give up the need for full understanding. no, i don’t get why certain things fall out the way they do, and that’s okay.
because His way is and always has been better.
thats how i got here in the first place!
if you got nothing out of this blog, all i am saying is that if michael phelps corrected me on how to do a stroke, i would do it without question. just like michael phelps knows a lot about his profession – swimming – God knows exactly what he’s doing. and I don’t have to understand. I have to have faith and trust him.”)
this is my prayer this upcoming week if you want to read or pray it with me.
“Lord thank you for being a God of goodness and intentionality. Help me remember that your ways are always better than mine, especially when I can’t see it. help me keep singing even when i don’t want to. remind me that if you take care of the birds and flowers everyday, you won’t forget about me. let me keep saying yes to you, even if it is a weak yes. i love you, i trust you.”
lots of love,
Cami
