While being in Ecuador I have realized there are things I’m still holding onto that are holding me back from reaching my full potential with God, myself, and my community. This week I was reading in Matthew and listening to worship music and the song, “I’m Letting Go” by Francesca Battistelli came on. This song really got me thinking, why don’t I feel that way? Are there things I’m not letting go of? So, I asked, what am I not letting go of, God? Man, my eyes were opened. Although I have let go of a lot and I’m doing this trip because God has asked me too, I realized that I was holding on to things I don’t need. I realized although I was here I was still trying to fulfill dreams of mine, and not God’s dreams for me. That’s a hard reality sometimes, but I know that His plans are greater than mine, so I lean on that.
This song is a great representation of what I am feeling, after talking with God and realizing that I need to let go of things, it has been SO exhilarating. To follow God fully you must have a willing spirit and it is so, so, so hard sometimes, but to know God’s on my side gives me the most comfort of anything I have ever felt.
The Lyrics to I’m Letting Go:
My heartbeats standing on the edge, and my feet have finally left the ledge, like an acrobat there’s no turning back. I’m letting go of a life I planned for me and my dreams, I’m losing control of my destiny it feels like I’m falling and that’s what its like to believe, so I’m letting go. This is a giant leap of faith, trusting and trying to embrace the fear of the unknown beyond my comfort zone. I’m letting go of a life I planned for me and my dreams, I’m losing control of my destiny, it feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe, so I’m letting go giving into Your gravity, knowing You are holding me, I’m not afraid. I’m letting go of a life I planned for me and my dreams I’m losing control of my destiny it feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe, it feels like I’m falling and this the life for me. I’m letting go, it feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe, it feels like I’m falling, and this is the life for me.
