Life is a breeze.
Ha.
Life is actually a whirlwind and a breath.
It’s the very breath of God. He is the sustainer and true life. I found that out the hard way.
Learning has been something that I found came easily to me in school. I quickly found out how to meet the expectations of those around me, whether social cues or academic demands. The ‘how’ was always simple and all you had to do was do it. Failing was not an option and seemed far from where I was.
What that really means is I never saw failing as part of the learning equation.
The equation to me was: ‘1)Be given a demand 2)Meet the demand 3)Don’t slip 4Just do it.’
That’s not life with the Father.
He watches over our footsteps and makes sure that we don’t slip. Yet, he allows us to learn through failure, which is an area scary to me.
Because what if my failure is bigger than God. What if there’s a too far, a line, and a point of no return?
Don’t get me wrong, God’s heart as a Father breaks for us when we walk away and turn from him in any rebellion. Heaven doesn’t partner with that, but he is also working for us to return us back to him.
These past couple of weeks have NOT been full of stewardship, faithfulness, or hope in Him. They have shown rebellion, deceit, and even some hypocrisy in my life. I saw my flesh rear its very ugly head and I wanted to hide. I wanted to hide because I knew this was not what the Lord called me too, I had no idea how to do that by myself though, and because I was not meeting the standard of a life worthy of the calling I’ve been given I hid and tried to fix things on my own because what would God say when he saw the mess I made and the condition of my own heart.
I saw myself in the past weeks take the reigns and watch it go a wreck, give it to God, and then take them back to say that I can get it right on my own this time. But I’m no match for hell.
Ephesians 6 reminds us to “Be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might.”
God wasn’t looking for a perfect kid but a reliant kid.
I thought being a mature Christian was about ability, but my own maturing lies in my dependence on God which empowers me to live out a supernatural, abundant life.
The moment I confessed my rebellion I found a Father embracing me and peace restored. Also, the truth that God was looking for me to give my life to him instead of trying to arrange it for him.
God wants life for us and gives it freely but what if life is more about the WITH God and that ends up producing a life FOR God.
“This is eternal life, that they may know You, the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom You have sent.”
John 17:3
