This week has been crazy. But in a good way. This past month several others and I have been preparing to go to New Orleans for spring break to bring the Kingdom of God. And the warfare has been crazy for us as we prepare. It seems every little lie the enemy had planted when I was younger, I had believed and those beliefs had held me back from God. “You’re not enough to be wanted.” “You have to prove your worth it to Him.” “God doesn’t want to give you what He has until you earn it.” “You’re just an accident in the kingdom of God.” These lies have all been thrown back in my face this week, but the Lord has been faithful. I know He is using this time for my good, to train me with His truth. It would be easy to let those lies back in my heart and to believe them, and some I have held onto enough to do damage. But the Lord is bigger and can work this out for me and for others. Through these battles in my mind for faith, I have come to realize that the Lord wants me to know Him and His will. He desires that His children declare truth. He wants us to be a part of what He is doing in us for others. He has given us everything we need for life and godliness. With every lie, I get to declare truth.
“You are not wanted.”
–“I’m here, aren’t I? God created me; I am wanted.” Jesus’ every action solidifies the Father’s nature and His love for us.
New Orleans has come and gone and now I am adding to the statements that I made earlier. There are lies and fears deep in our hearts. Things we hope aren’t true, yet are afraid to explore on the chance that they might be true. The Word of Truth calls the devil the Father of Lies. As believers we are given the gift of Holy Spirit who Jesus calls the Spirit of Truth. My heart has been in turmoil and the ground of it has been tilled. Deep rooted lies are being exposed by the Holy Spirit, and I have discovered a growing desire for truth to guide my steps and be the only person who has a say in my life. One of my deepest fears is the one that the Lord does not want me. But this is something that is not supported by the words of God.
“But do not forget this one thing, dear friends: With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day. The Lord is not slow in keeping His promise, as some understand slowness. Instead He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.” 2 Peter 3:9
King Jesus is the rebuttal to all my fears. He is the image of the invisible God and the first born among all creation. He only does what He sees His Father doing, and therefore reveals the Father’s nature to us.
“Yes, Jesus loves me. The Bible tells me so.”
