This week I have seen God working in two BIG parts of my life.
I have gotten reassurance about shaving my head and about what I want to do with my future.
To be honest, It has been kind of hard without my hair. It’s just something I have to get used to but I know in the end it will only help me and bring me closer to the Father. We went to help at a school last week and the kids would look at me kinda confused then point to one of my team mates hair and say “this nice. why you cut.” It’s not that I was mad any them for saying this, because I wasn’t at all. They’re kids and it isn’t really common to have short hair in their culture so these comments were very expected. They made me think and really ask the Lord for answers to these questions. These kids had a val
id point, why did I shave my head? I asked the Father to gently reassure me that this decision was from Him and not something I just thought up one day and man let me tell you, He provided.
I have been getting constant reassurance from my team, that I am still the same person, just a little more real and raw and with less hair. However, at church, a guy came up to me and told me about his friend who has been wanting to shave her head for a long time but didn’t think she would look good with short hair. A few minutes later she came up and shook my hand and told me that I look cool but still didn’t know she could pull off short hair. I told her that she should just go for it and that she would look great with short hair. She looked at me and said “okay cool, I’ll do it after my exams are finished.”
Later that day we were walking around looking at venders on the street and a malaysian man, who looked like some kind of police officer, passed me. He pointed at his head and then mine, gave me a thumbs up, smiled big and walked away.
Today at the Kwan center (a homeless shelter) a lady that works their came up and touched my head and told me I was beautiful. I haven’t met her yet and this was the first thing she said to me.
After a week of feeling a little more self conscious than usual and worrying that people would look at me differently, I was given numerous divine encounters with complete strangers that had the Lord shining through them. The funny thing is that those people didn’t even know they were the answers I was looking for. God has a crazy way of using other people to talk to us and I have seen that big time this week. I have learned this week to not think less of myself, but to think about myself less. I don’t really look in the mirror a ton or look at my phone as much because it honestly doesn’t really matter what my outwardly appearance looks like as long as I’m doing everything I can to glorify the Lord.
The second super cool thing that happened this week was at paster kumars home where we had church. We started out leading worship and I sang as Pres played the guitar. Liv and Landona shared their testimonies and then we read some scripture and he talked for a while about the grace of God and what it has looked like in his life. He is truly on fire for the Lord. Wow. He then started praying over each one of us. At first I did’t realize that he was praying over each of us individually until he put his hand on my head and started praying. He said that he saw people bleeding and me healing them. He talked about Matthew 9:20-22 about the woman who bled for 12 years but went up to jesus and touched his clothes and was healed. He told me that he saw me healing those who were hurt. He also said that the Lord told him that I need to stop googling answers and just ask Him first. This struck so many cords with me. I have always known that I wanted to be a nurse but have been asking the Lord if that is what He had planned for me also because His plans are untimatly the most important. Paster Kumar only knew my name, and the Lord used him in miraculous was to reassure me that becoming a nurse and helping people is what He wants me to do and that I can use that career to lead people to Christ. It was crazy. Really cool Jesus moment that I had been waiting for. The Lord spoke right though Him and it was evident in how passionately He prayed.
Malaysia is the coolest place ever and I am kind of amazed at how much I like it. There are so many different cultures, but everyone lives so peacefully together and are so welcoming. Our ministry is all over and place and different almost every day but it has been exiting getting to experience so many different things. I have seen the Lord show up in so may ways here and I can’t wait to see what the next two weeks have i store for us.
My head got sunburnt for the first time ever and ALSO, I still need $5,355 by January to stay on the race. I would REALLY REALLY appreciate any donations and prayers as I continue through the rest of this year!! Thank you:)))))
