This year I have experienced a new definition of roller coaster ride with my emotions. People and places have brought me so much joy but also brought me to tears. Over the last year my life has been similar to the gospel- ?.
My key for the journey in the beginning of the Race was BE. Month 5 I remember the Father giving me a clear and direct vision of who my key was meant for. I got to give away my key at a mini devotional breakfast with one of the girls. The Father laid on my heart a few songs that intertwined with her testimony. When I spoke over her I had tears in my eyes. I found who I was supposed to BE and now it was time for God to work in and through her to BE.
I was never one to leave mementos behind in countries. But in our final month I am in complete shock of what the Father asked me to leave as a memento. One morning when I was sitting with Him I heard Him say to me that I was to give my Bible away to someone at the albergue who spoke English. I began to question His voice and my intentions. Was I giving it away to get rid of space and weight, Was it really supposed to go to them, Am I supposed to buy a new bible? For years I dreamed of having a journaling Bible to fill with drawings/pictures, highlighted pages, notes, and sticky tabs. But I was reassured that the new owners (a mother and daughter) would have questions answered and it would be powerful encouragement.
Camino-1 vs Sarah-0! In a million dreams I never would have expected to spend 15 days with complete strangers in a place that was unfamiliar. Giving hugs and saying goodbyes sent me on another emotional roller coaster. My time in the albergue was filled with moments I will never forget! As I gifted my Bible the Father connected the dots for me. Month 5 I was confident and learning what it meant to BE. Now at the end of the Race I am confident, ready to encourage, and ready to help others find their BE in the Kingdom. Life on the missions field has taught me how important it is to not only adopt the word Christian but also adopt the actions of BEing more like the Father.
