This debrief’s theme was FOCUS: Remembrance, Reflection, Perspective and Empowerment.
How appropriate as we say goodbye to our old teams and reflect on the last 4 months then step into a fresh team with new perspective and a sense of empowerment. (Leadership really knows what they are doing….)
As I was meditating (Soultime app is amazing and you should check it out), a song was suggested.
Be Thou My Vision.
It’s one of my favorite Hymns and in the meditation app, the Celtic spin on the old hymn elongated the words in a way that prompted me to truly take it in.
I looked up the lyrics online anyways.
As I listened to the song a second time, parts stood out to me.
“Be thou my vision” God show me your perspective, let me see things from your eyes, be the one that consumes the space in front of my eyes. All three meanings can come from that one phrase.
“Thou my best thought, by day or by night” I broke on the first day of debrief. God allowed in His wisdom what His power could have prevented. I spent an entire day having no words, wanting no interaction – physical, verbal, or emotional – from any person, and crying. I released so much in tears that day to God. But I couldn’t sense His voice.
“I ever with thee and thou with me, Lord” But I knew He was there.
“Thou my great Father and I thy true son” He provided for me what I needed: an activity next to a couple of wonderful squad mates, that led to a slow opening of words, that flowed into a conversation with loving leadership, that sparked an ask, that received a positive answer, that showed God’s provision in the pain, that facilitated an inner healing session with Jesus that uprooted a deep tree of dark fruit.
“My treasure Thou art”
I experienced one of the deepest inner healings with Jesus that night. The true treasure was Jesus Himself and the gentleness He showed to my shattered self.
“Heart of my own heart, whatever befall.”
When we become His, and He becomes ours at the moment of salvation, our hearts mend. When we experience pain, He does. When His heart breaks for someone, we feel it too. When we are consumed with joy, He gets caught up in it as well. When He sings over us and celebrates, our hearts react. Our walk with Him slowly syncs our heartbeats till the valves open and close at the same time.
I just let that sink in as I sang it a few times.
“Heart of my own heart, whatever befall, Still be my vision, oh Ruler of All.”
