How it happened.
I sometimes wish my story with Jesus was more radical, but I was blessed with His gentleness.
I grew up going to church and I honestly can’t remember a time when Jesus wasn’t the savior of my heart. I am blessed beyond measure for that but I haven’t always felt that way.
Every hardship I endured Jesus was always there, keeping me from committing suicide, keeping me from falling in love with the wrong person, keeping me from diving too far away from Him. As close as I was to God’s grace, I still fell for Performance.
If I wasn’t serving the church, I wasn’t serving God and if I wasn’t serving God, He was mad at me. I would cut our relationship off and put myself in a “time-out” when I felt I wasn’t doing enough for Him or when I messed up and made a mistake. After all, sinning is bad enough but if you consciously choose sin, well, that’s unforgivable. Or so I thought.
I settled for the safe route. I settled for helping others achieve their goals. I was dreaming with God, slicing those dreams in half and then settling for half of that. I didn’t deserve the fullness of the reality of dreaming with God.
BUT!! It’s not about deserving. It’s not about performance. God’s love is UNCONDITIONAL simply based on the fact that He loves you and wants you to have it.
When I came across the World Race in January of 2018 (my year of new beginnings), I have no words for it other than ‘my soul jumped.’ Everything in me KNEW this was God. But still, I hesitated. I prayed. I sought the counsel of my parents, my pastor, my mentors, my boss, and the friends that know me so well.
I have received nothing but encouragement, excitement, open doors, and confirmations from the Lord. And I have no words other than I’m overwhelmed with excitement and joy for this new season.
