So i just found out that due to the coronavirus my family will not be able to come visit me this April. At first I tried to pretend like I didn’t care because I was honestly so sad inside I couldn’t even begin to think about how disappointed I was, but eventually it surfaced wether I wanted it to or not. I let myself cry for the night then in the morning I spent time with the Lord and begged for some peace and perspective over it all.
I have been excited for my family to come since I got here in January, to show them all my favorite spots to eat, to take them to Agape and let them meet the kids they’re sponsoring, to have them meet my friends, to take them to my local coffee and tea ladies, and the list goes on… After thinking about all these things the Lord pointed out to me that I’m not here so that I can show my family around Thailand, I’m here to love on these orphaned kids. Kids who don’t even have families let alone have families who were willing to spend thousands of dollars to come see them.
As I continued to sit with the Lord, my heart began to shift from a place of sadness to a place of gratefulness. Gratefulness for a family so supportive, loving, accepting, and encouraging. And while of course I’m still disappointed, I feel that all this happened so that the Lord could renew my focus for why I’m here and how much he has in store for me even if my family doesn’t get to be a part of that anymore. He’s reminded me that even though Thailand is full of lots of exciting adventures and treasures that seeking him and growing closer to him through my service and ministry is the real adventure and that is where I will gain real treasure.
