My whole life I have been trapped in a cycle of fear. Ever since I was little small things that happened I would blow out of proportion and react in true terror. Most decisions that I have made have been based on how scared I was. Even coming on the race I was truly terrified and in no way wanted to come because of my long list of things to be scared of.
In the last year I have learned a lot about inner healing, the process of the Holy Spirit going to the root of these bad fruits and digging it out in healing. The last couple weeks I knew I really needed healing from the fear that I walked in.
A couple weeks ago we had a healing service just in our squad. And let me tell you the Holy Spirit was so present. People would shout out what they needed healing from and we would surround then and drench them in prayers. People were walking in so much boldness and asking healing for physical things like type one diabetes, scoliosis and heart conditions. God was so present and we were seeing healing, it was so crazy how much freedom and joy filled the room. The spirit of joy had fallen on the room and I was filled with laughter. It was so cool to see the boldness of my squad mates and then see Jesus come through with crazy healings.
I definitely felt called to ask for prayer over my fear. So I shouted out that I needed healing over fear. My whole squad surrounded me and was shouting freedom over me. It was such a powerful experience. After they prayed I felt so much peace and gratitude for these people around me. The rest of the night was crazy and full of miracles.
That night I was thinking, “like how do you test if I am healed from fear?” I started thing about going to college next year which literally the day before I was terrified when I thought about it and I had total peace. I started to think about all the things I had placed fear in and I couldn’t even think of anything to be fearful of.
I am so beyond thankful for this new freedom I walk in and am so excited to continue this healing as I draw closer to Jesus.
