Fear
Fear of the Lord is beautiful.
Fear of the flesh is a prison. I remember at launch, I was worshipping, and I felt no connection with Christ. It wasn’t just a lack of emotional experience either. I was numb to his discernment, and his voice. I cried out to God, “may I walk in your guidance, whatever you tell me to do, I’ll do it right now no matter what, and I’ll be fearless.” Next thing I know, The Lord is telling me to go on to the stage and say something.
Firstly, I have always hated public speaking in the past. I’d barely passed speech class in high school, and I dropped out of it in college. It was a HUGE task for me.
I was so afraid and my heart began to pulse heavily. My thoughts changed from prayers of guidance into prayers of strength and confirmation from God.
BUT..
before I could finish, my prophetic leader Kaleb came and tapped me on the shoulder.
He said “The Lord is telling me, you need to let go of your fear”
Next, I walked over to one side of the stage to look for someone who could help me with my task. With no luck, I returned to my spot in the back row.
I walked to the other side and found Kacie, and told her that The Lord had given me a word to say. At this point I had absolutely no idea what I was going to say, but I knew in my heart that God would speak through me.
She worked her administrative magic and within 20 seconds, I was up on stage holding a microphone in front of all the squads.
With the worship team subtly playing music behind, words that were not my own flowed from my mouth.
I don’t remember exactly what I said, but God used me to tell them to let go of everything, and to rejoice in worship because he has delivered us all. That after months of fundraising, we are HERE, and here we are being sent out among the nations to make disciples and bring back the lost sheep.
After speaking very briefly, I went back to my seat and could barely stand. The Holy Spirit brought seemingly all emotions over me at the same time. That was the confirmation and reward for obedience. But It’s not always going to be like that. Our reward is in heaven.
This is a short blog, but I want to encourage obedience to the voice of God. A few months ago I believed that you needed a high level of spirituality to hear the voice of the Lord, but that’s not it. To know the language of the father and how he speaks, you need to know him.
I can speak on behalf of my sisters because I know them so well. Often times I can see a situation and I imagine their reaction. Most every time, what I imagine is exactly how they would react too!
It’s the same thing with the father, hearing his voice is to know him. To know what Jesus would do, and then to do it. To act on his behalf, you need to know him. but woe to those who know him and do not act his behalf.
To know him, you just need to read the Bible.
ministry isn’t street preaching. ministry is walking like Jesus, through every moment of life. It’s giving people the love of the father. It’s meeting people where they are at, and walking them through whatever they are battling with. Not calling them to where you are at. Jesus didn’t call us to be sinless, he came to earth, met us where we are at (earth, sin, death) and provided us a way out of it (heaven, righteousness through faith, and eternal life).
I love you all!
I’d like to encourage you all to make disciples back home! This isn’t exclusive, The Lord is with you wherever you go, whether it be the beach, or in the slums. You can walk in that joy everywhere.
JOY IS STRENGTH (Nehemiah 8:10) “Do not grieve for the Joy of the Lord is your strength”
What happens when our joy isn’t in the Lord?
Often times our joy resides in a TV show, or a sport we play, or even in drinking, sex, or relationships. In result, when it runs out, and the vanity flees, so does our joy. Your spouse leaves you, and so does your joy, the TV series ends and so does your joy. The list goes on, because everything is fleeting.
So the joy is gone, and with it, flees your strength. You’re eternally unhappy, and so you have no hope. You have no energy to walk like Christ, you have no time to give to others because you are using every second of the day to fill yourself up with that sweet cocktail of temporary fun in hopes that you’ll be joyful in something. Its never enough though. And It never will be.
God IS enough. You ARE enough. Just walk in that.
