San Ignacio was a time where World Race assigned my team to do Ask The Lord as our ministry this month. I think without trying to I had this expectation that someone on my team would hear from God and we would just do it; whatever “it” was.
Even now – I struggle with believing that I, Michelle, can hear from God our Father about the specifics. I firmly believe God can and will speak to people and tell them what to do like He did for Abraham and Noah.
But my struggle is – do I believe He will do that for me?
I know that God has spoken to me through His word, nature, and song lyrics. In the past He has spoken to me about who I am and who He is. I know God, my Father, has used words to shape my person.
But to ask Holy Spirit what do You want me to do? Where do You want me to walk? Who do You want me to talk to?
Then to listen and actually allow the Holy Spirit to answer…this is a new concept. Not new in the sense that I have never heard about it but new in that it is in fact possible for me, and not just for others to experience.
So the past month, there were days I tried to listen but I never got a vision, a word, or a person to reach out to. One day, I did direct my team to walk in a different direction…but it was not till after that I even realized that it must have been the Holy Spirit’s nudge. And that’s because God moves and wanted to direct my teammates to a group of welders, a man with a sick mother, and an self declared ex-gangster. It was amazing to see and pray for my team in these encounters and for the people.
Yet, now I look back and the question becomes did I fail to hear what God had asked me to do?
But like Jesus does in the gospels so often – I hear this question: “Daughter, why do you strive so hard TO DO?”
Just BE. Be loved. Be chosen. Be redeemed. Be the one He delights in. Sit in His presence and remain there. Stand on His truth and not my own thoughts.
An image the Father gave me was the sun. As I watched the sunrise one morning, I acknowledged God made the sun to shine. He placed it in perfect position to do exactly what it needs to do. But what God pointed out was that the sun does NOT move. It remains right where our Creator placed it – it doesn’t worry about not doing what God wants it to do because it is fixed. It continues to shine. In the same way, I will shine and do when I stay fixed on Jesus. When I stand in His presence, then He can DO whatever He wants with me.
Friends, look up Psalm 51:16-17. Our Father in Heaven doesn’t want our sacrifices if we don’t surrender our heart.
Thank you all for your prayers and support. I am so close to being fully funded and I give all the glory to Jesus. Thank you again.
My squad and I have spent the last few days in Caye Caulker, Belize – reflecting, relaxing, and training. Now, we are headed to Honduras and I am looking forward to a 15 hour bus ride! I pray lots of sleeping and audio books are in store for me!
Once in Honduras, our whole squad will be staying together, rotating shifts and serving disabled adults. Please pray for my team Grit to continue to unite through discipline and love. Pray for our ministry and the rest of my squad.
Thanks!!
