I lost my key. Yes, the key that said CHOSEN.
The Lord chooses me. He will always choose me no matter who doesn’t choose me on this earth (see blog titled ‘CHOSEN not Forsaken’). I am thankful that the Lord taught me about His amazing, unfailing love and the fact that He will never abandon me or forsake me even through my imperfections and turning away from Him.
In Peru, the Lord had prompted me to give my key to Tim and Holly, our hosts. They are chosen for the work they are doing in Cusco. As difficult as it may be, they have decided to stay and be a light in a dark place. I didn’t give them the key. I wasn’t ready to give it up, I wanted to hang on to it because MAYBE, just maybe, God still wanted to teach me more about being chosen…even though He already showed me the most beautiful truth about it. It was selfish really.
Fiercely Loved headed to Bolivia and while living on the boat I didn’t have many opportunities to wear my key around my neck so it sat on my little table in my cabin. Then, during my birthday celebration, my teammate, Jenny, gave me her key. It says, HIS. At the end of our month, my teammates gave me feedback on not only being a daughter to the King, but also being His bride, something that I still don’t think I fully understand but something that I was definitely struggling with then.
When we were packing up, I could have sworn that I packed my key away somewhere in my pack. But when we arrived in Argentina, I quickly realized as I unpacked EVERYTHING that my chosen key wasn’t there. I was really upset and had no idea where I could have left it.
I am realizing as the time goes on, that the Lord took my key away. I literally have no idea where I left it and have no recollection of leaving it, seeing it or packing it. I was selfishly hanging on to this word that He had already shown me and it was time that I move on…it was time someone else got my key and learned how they are CHOSEN.
Through my selfishness, He took it away but through His grace, He gave me a new word to teach me new truths.
So as I step into learning how I am HIS, I trust that He has put my key into the hands of someone who needs it more than I do.
Also, as I step into learning how I am HIS, I ask you to pray for me as it is not an easy lesson to learn. He is breaking me in new ways and revealing lies that cause me to believe that I am not fully His, that I need the praise and affection from others and that what He says about me isn’t enough for me…when it should be.
I am both excited and absolutely terrified to continue on this journey of finding out just how important it is for me to know I am HIS. Thank you for joining with me in prayer and interceding on my behalf.
Blessings,
Meg
