you’re a world changer.
i can’t believe the incredible things you’re doing.
i can’t imagine doing the things you’re doing.
update: God would be doing the things He’s doing around the world whether i was there or not. God is God. He doesn’t need me.
i had a conversation tonight with my team leader. i was struggling because i felt like i wasn’t actually doing anything for ministry. we showed up in the middle of rural Cambodia to a giant complex where hundreds of children come to play games, get food, sing worship songs, hear a lesson, and play some more games. i was looking around and thinking “there’s so many children. i don’t speak their language. how could i possibly make a difference here?” i mentioned this to Aundraya, my TL, and she made a really thought provoking point. she said “ya know Maggie…we can’t really think of it as being here to serve the kids and making a huge impact on them, but serving the people who serve the kids.”
that struck me. it made sense. so many of the ministries i’ve been a part of on the race so far are just serving other people so that they can make that bigger difference or so that they can serve their community. serving those who are serving others.
sitting with disabled adults so that the caretakers could take care of their chores without being disrupted.
deep cleaning a guest house, which otherwise wouldn’t get done because staff is already too busy with their own daily tasks.
going to villages and welcoming kids on the truck to go learn about Jesus so that the people leading the production can prepare for the evening.
i was standing among a couple hundred Khmer children – their hands lifted high, shouting praises to the Father in Khmer – when it hit me: God doesn’t need me for this.
he’s already working in this place. these people knew Jesus before i even stepped foot in this country. these people love Jesus regardless of me sharing the truth with them. their salvation does not depend on me.
God doesn’t need me.
…but He WANTS me. he sees my heart for people to know the truth. he sees my heart behind why i want people to know His love. He sees the heart of every person who longs to be embraced by Him.
i never have been, and never will be, able to determine someone’s salvation. that will always be Jesus. but i CAN take part in creating the Kingdom on Earth and stewarding the opportunities He has provided me with.
He always wants my heart. His miracles and love and mercy never depend on me, but i am always welcome in those moments.
what a sweet gift to be able to learn these little treasures from Heaven.
all the love and blessings back home,
xoxo. mags
