Let me just apologize for not blogging as much as I should be. I left my life in Huntington Beach, including my family, friends, and comforts which was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. I recently left my life in Battambang that I was living at for a month, we moved to Siem Reap for a week of debrief, and now I am living in Kampong Thom. My life has been slow, yet so so fast. The days feel like years, and the weeks feel like minutes. I can’t quite explain the way I am living. Sometimes I just want to be home with my family watching disney movies, sometimes I want to be a little girl and listen to my dad read me my fairy and mermaid books, and most of the time I am completely happy with where I am and what I am experiencing. Going to third world countries really makes me wish our world was just a part of my imagination and everything was healthy, happy, and beautiful. But here in Cambodia, there is so much need. Plastic is just a completely common thing, not only is it all over the streets, but they burn it and other trash with chemicals as well that goes into our air and pollutes the air and the rain. There are a lot of abused animals all over the streets, children that need so much love, and people that feel so empty and lost. There are so many broken men, women, and children. I’ve really been trying to take everything in, and to process the sadness that is here. And to tell myself that I can’t fix everything. The thing is, is that Jesus can. I’ve been so distracted by my own emotions that I haven’t been focusing on my relationship with Him. Or trusting that He will fix all of this. That although our world is broken, sick, and hurting, we still have Jesus. That through Christ we are saved. Humans will continue to break apart this world no matter how much I try to stop them. But once we accept Jesus, we are forgiven and made new.
I will continue to fight for what I believe in. But it’s up to everyone else to choose the good, to choose the things that will save our planet and that will save our lost souls.
