One of the things that I have struggled the most with since being on the race is the realization that I am not anybody’s savior. I obviously know that I am not God, but for some reason, I thought I was going around the world to save people. I know quite a few people back in America that know there is poverty, sickness, and spiritual deprivation all over the world. But knowing is not the same as seeing it for yourself, and being immersed in it. I had a full heart posture of wanting to go into all of these places and save them from all of the hardships that had a hold on them. That is an extremely heavy burden to carry. My heart would break when I prayed over someone for healing and nothing would happen. When a family would tell me that they can’t find work, so they don’t know where their next meal will come from, I feel so helpless that I don’t have the funds to feed them or help create jobs for them. When a parent has suffered the loss of her child, I just want to save them from all of the pain they are feeling, but I can’t. I can’t save anyone, and I will never be able to save anyone. That isn’t my job. So then, “what is my job?”
Matthew 29:19-20 “Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”
My job is to bring the good news to everyone around me. My job is to help people see the true love of Jesus Christ in everything they do. My job is to teach children English, art, devotionals, and sports and then tell them that Jesus is bigger than all of that. My job is to declare restoration in peoples faith, reconciliation in families, and healing over the sick. Not because I’m God, but because the Holy Spirit lives inside of me, I have the authority to do that. My Job is to inform them of the living word, and I believe with my entire heart that God will take it from there and truly save them.
On that note, I am in Guatemala! I teach English, art, bible studies, and sports to kids ages 4-13 in a small village. This ministry has been one of the biggest blessings in my life. The kids are eager to learn and love so deeply. Thank you to everyone who has donated money to me, you have changed my life, and changed so many lives across many countries. I am so thankful to know that I serve a God who provides for the needs of his people so well and ALWAYS comes through on his promises.
