A wise woman once told me that if it didn’t hurt you or break your heart to leave a people or a place that you didn’t love hard enough. I said goodbye/see you later to my squad/team on Wednesday the 4th and it honestly hurt so bad. Possibly worse than the race goodbyes (which are killer if you’ve done it). On my way home and entering this new season of my life, the Lord has once again asked me if I would be willing to live with an open heart and hands. He is asking me if I would be willing to surrender my people, my singleness, my time on the field, my preferences and other things to Him. He isn’t asking to take it away to be cruel but because He has something even better in store for me that He wants to place in my hands. I praise the Lord that He is allowing me to be in a season of blessings and abundance and redemption but I am also choosing to praise the Lord for placing me in a season of grieving right alongside of that. I am choosing to thank the Lord that even though I have things and people to grieve over, that He has given me the family I didn’t even realize I needed that stretches all around the world.
This will be my last blog post. I don’t want any and everyone who reads this to think that it’s a sad ending, because it’s really not. The Lord has shown me how to act in ahava towards people (to love someone selflessly). He has shown me what it means to be a woman of joy and live that out, and I wouldn’t change that for the world. I would do it over again and again just to get a taste of how good it was, even if it breaks my heart every time. I praise Papa for allowing me to be a vessel for His kingdom and to witness amazing miracles, be pushed into tough situations, learn what it means to allow myself to be served and loved by others and most impactful and important to me, to truly fall back in love with Him. The past year and a half of my life have truly been some of my favorite memories. However, I know that that was just a stepping stone for what’s next in life.
Thank you to everyone who has supported me throughout this entire time, a nine month trip that turned into a year on the field and a lifetime changed for the better. Without your prayers and support, none of this would have been possible. I truly thank each and every one of you for believing in me and allowing the Lord to use YOU as a vessel as well.
I’ll be honest, finishing this blog isn’t easy and I have been waiting and waiting to post it because I know that it is the end of a season for me. However, I know that it is time to move on. So without anymore waiting –
I love you all big time,
Liz
