As most of you know, I am home now, and if you didn’t, SURPRISE, I’m home.
These past two weeks have been some of the weirdest days of my life. When I first arrived in America I stayed at my grandparents house with two of my teammates Coll and Lil just to relax and catch our breath all together before we faced our families. And it was super weird in that moment but it was still comfortable and okay but as I have gotten home its just gotten weirder (I wish I had a better word to describe it but thats the best I can come up with so, sorry if it gets repetitive).
I know that there is not way that I can do this all by myself and thankfully I have wonderful friends and family that are here to listen to what I have to say or don’t say anything, which has been a blessing. And of course, I rely on Abba for everything and He is the only one who can really get me through, whatever this is. However, I just wanted to share some real things with everyone.
There are somedays that I wake up in my own bed in my room back here in Indiana and I think to myself…”Was that all a dream?”. Sometimes I feel as if I have never left home and I just woke up from a nap…that happened to last nine months but feels like twenty minutes. There are days that it hits me like a ton of bricks and everything I see, hear, smell, or even think about makes me want to burst into tears and laugh at the same time. I get frustrated at so many people, AND I DONT KNOW WHY! I knew that coming home wasn’t going to be easy, and I will admit that there was a split second that I thought, maybe I could hold it all together and process and be okay.
I know that I am far from processing everything and I know that I still have a lot to go through, but as I am laying here in bed, in America, with some of my best friends miles and miles away from me, I know that the Lord has some crazy good things in store for me. As I transition into the next period of my life I continue to lean on the Father for everything and thank Him for placing such wonderful people in my life to help me along the way.
Thank you to all my supports for your prayers and allowing me to word vomit on here as much as I need.
I love you all,
Liz
