Hey guys. I know it’s been a minute, and I’m truly sorry about that. My heart has been a little heavy lately, and if I’m being 100% real, I didn’t know how to let you all into that. However, I’ve had some time to think about and process it all, so I’m gonna try.
I left Guatemala. I knew it was coming. When I signed up for the race, I knew after three months of being in Guatemala, I would leave and fly to Thailand. When we got to Guatemala in September, it just felt so far away. I had three months. That felt like so much time. But before I knew it September was gone, and then October came and went. November was like a blink of an eye. December 1st came and it truly hit me that I was leaving my new favorite place on earth in a week and a half.
I told my whole team on our last day of ministry that I didn’t think I would cry. It didn’t feel real to me so I didn’t think my mind would let me cry. I thought the tears would come later on the plane or something as I processed my time there and the relationships I was saying “see you later” to. But then I saw Mamá Rosa holding Camille, speaking words of life into her ear, while they both sobbed, and a tiny little tear trickled down my cheek. And for those of you who know me deeply, you know that once that first one falls, its a freaking flood. I looked at the faces of every person we had met in Llano, and all I could see was faces of people I wasn’t promised to see again. I hugged all my boys for the 700th time that day and sobbed as I said goodbye. My boys, my sweet sweet students, asked me “when are you coming back?” That was the hardest part about leaving, not knowing the answer to that question. I have no promise from God that I’ll get to go back to Guatemala. I truly have no idea when I will next see all the precious people I met. That really hurts a lot. I LOVED Guatemala more than I even know how to explain. I truly didn’t think it was possible to get better.
I have a precious friend who likes to say that God takes us from “glory to glory.” The thing I’m experiencing right now, won’t be the best thing. The race won’t be the best year of my life. And the season after that won’t be the best season of my life. God just takes us from one good thing to the next: glory to glory. This proved really true the second I landed in Thailand.
I miss Guatemala. ALOT. I miss the people I met and the relationships I’ve formed, but you guys, Thailand is amazing. The people are all so kind, this country is literally nicknamed “the land of smiles.” I am doing a lot of ministry that is really outside of my comfort zone, which means lots of growth and perspective shifts and wow. God truly does take us from glory to glory. So yeah, these last few weeks have been pretty hard. I miss Guatemala a lot, but today is the day that I stop looking back. Sure, I can appreciate it and remember it with fondness, but it will no longer be with sadness. Because I really love Thailand and I cannot wait to see what the Lord does here in the next couple weeks! It’s gonna be huge.
thanks for reading and being patient as I’ve missed the last couple weeks of blogging! love you guys real big.
<3 K
