My squad and I launch for the World Race in 7 months from now! WOW! And I get to meet them all at training camp in Georgia in 4.5 months! WHOOP WHOOOOP!
(And yes I am a little OVER-excited… yes my emotions are EVERYWHERE… it’s okay, we’re all okay!)
In my last update, which was two weeks ago, I shared with all of you how I was doing mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. I wasn’t doing too hot. I was feeling extremely weak in my faith and I essentially felt like I was losing in battle. So, for those of you who have been praying for me, God IS listening and I can see it! I really can. Over the last week God has really been speaking to me and revealing more of His character to me in the most unexpected ways. I’m feeling encouraged and inspired, those feelings of fear are still there but not near as strong as they were a couple of weeks ago. He is the only one who knows exactly what our hearts need and He has given mine just what He knew it needed over the last week. It blows my mind how He knows us SO much better than we could ever know ourselves. Jesus blows my mind, period. The last few days I’ve really been trying to see Him in the smallest things throughout the day and that little trick alone has given me so much perspective. When I focus on seeing God in the small things, I can really start to see Him in the big things. I can see (and feel) Him working in my heart, in my life, in the lives of my friends, in the lives of my coworkers, in the lives of my Brookshire’s customers, I can see it.
I also shared with all of you about my struggle with loneliness over the last couple of months. Over the last week the Lord has been helping me see the good in this season. He is helping me see it as a blessing instead. I don’t know what my life holds after the World Race but I do know that I may never get this time again. This time to grow close to Him without any additional responsibilities and to spend my time with my family and my friends while I’m not married and while I don’t have any kids. One day, these things are going to come and I’m not going to be able to spend time with my friends and family the way that I am getting to right now. And I didn’t realize that before. I was so focused on how I felt that I didn’t even see the good in it. Yes, it’s still really hard. But it’s such a special time to grow these relationships in my life and I am beyond thankful for this season. This is the time to focus on leading my friends and family to Jesus. To be a light to them. To be a positive influence and love them well before I start a family of my own one day. God knows exactly what He’s doing and I trust His plans over my own plans, any day.
With that being said, I am 100% open to whatever the Lord has for me in this journey called The World Race. That includes the months leading up to the race, during the race, and after the race. Whatever He wants me to do and whatever He has for me, that’s what I’m pursuing.
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.” – Romans 8:28
P.S. I ask of any of you who are reading this that you would also be praying for my squad as well as myself. They all have their own struggles as well and are really in need of some prayer right now! We need all of the prayers we can get! Thank you in advance 🙂
