Blogging is so freaking hard bro. I don’t get it. We do so much every day but it starts to get mundane and I don’t want to bore you. You already know I’m at a school, teaching some crazy kids and teachers, trying to figure myself out, and working on how to live with 8 other girls. That’s just my life right now. For once I kind of feel content where I’m at, ministry-wise and with the relationships on my team. I just feel OK with it all. We talked about the “A” stage, “B” stage, and “C” stage. “A” being the Abandonment stage, “B” being the Brokenness stage, and “C” being the Dependence stage. I’ll explain each, the first one is abandonment. I feel like this one is kind of self-explanatory. I left home, left friends and family, basically left everything I knew and loved. I abandoned my rights and comforters and set my physical possessions aside. I left relationships behind to start this new journey with the promise of something more. The next being brokenness. Our abandonment leads us to a point of brokenness. We experience a sense of desperation because of this feeling. The thoughts of loss of self and towards the end having a new restoration and redemption brought through Christ. We are given a new identity because of it. The last one is, of course, you guessed it, dependence. Brokenness is a state but also often just a moment. This gives us a choice to make, we can revert from our old ways or be can start new with a clean slate and new pattern of choosing to put our full trust in Jesus. So I don’t really know which stage I’m at, maybe I’m through the first cycle of all three and I’m starting over but I’m in the middle of dependence and abandonment. That doesn’t really make sense. Like I said I feel content, I want God to make me have a desire to want more, whether it’s with my relationships on my team or with the ministry and the people I talk to every day. I want to continuously have that feeling of growing the Kingdom of God.
Thanks always for reading my blogs God Bless<3
This blog was heavily taken from the journey markers we do every week. Thank you so much to my Squad mentors and whoever challenges us through these questions each week.
