So this one was difficult. We do so much throughout the week it’s getting hard to sit down and pick one or two things to talk about. Teaching, painting, being sick most of the week, going to the circus, four coffee shops in one day, feeling lonely and missing home, those are some I can bring up I guess. Haha, external processing is funny. Staying home and sitting in the same place on the floor while the rest of my team went out to ministry wasn’t so fun. Being secluded to this house we call home was a difficult battle. God has interesting ways for us to come back to the reality of what we were there to do as a team. For me, it was keeping me home while the rest went out. We were in a Buddhist school and I was using that as an excuse for myself to complain about going. Honestly, I was almost dreading going to this ministry spot for this week because of the distance and knowing there would a large spiritual battle to overcome. I would think of reasons to not ride my bike the 20 minutes in the heat and dodging traffic. I did go to the school for a half day on Tuesday because Monday was a holiday for Cambodian’s, but that was difficult because I was already sick and it was hard to breathe so I stayed home the second half of the day. Wednesday and Thursday I was quarantined to the house. I was avoiding spending time with God to realize that he was talking to me the whole time. I wasn’t listening but he was there, sitting with me, talking to me, and comforting me, the problem was I wasn’t receiving it. People were praying over me and I just wasn’t believing anything they were saying. I was in this for my own reasons, and not letting God dictate my next move. Josie didn’t want to go to ministry, Josie was annoyed by things not going her way, Josie wanted things to be nice, easy, and smooth sailing. Yeah, God wrecked that mindset lol. He let me be sick to definitely show me that I’m not here for myself. These aren’t my plans to bring kingdom, this is God’s kingdom he’s bringing through me and my team together. He placed us in these specific schools for a reason and I can’t ignore the needs in these places because it’s not comfortable. God has people that are needing to be seen for more than their surface level status. I learned this week that I have to be intentional with each person I come in contact with.
Week two is already over and it seems like it’s going by so fast. I’m trying to take it all it but enjoy it at the same time. I’m still in shock that I’ve made it this far, asking myself every day, “how the heck did I get here?” I can’t thank each one of my supporters enough for the financial and support through prayers. I can’t get enough of prayers for the battles each day we have to overcome as a team. Please be in prayer for me and my team that we will start to open up and trust each other as we go into the next week of ministry at the same school. But financially WE’VE HIT OVER $11,000!!! Thank you so much now just $4,785 left. God’s got it and he will provide, but if you feel led to support my growing process in my relationship with God and how he’s using me to seek out the unseen place click the DONATE button and subscribe to this blog to stay updated! Love you all so much!
