Before jumping in I wanna give a bit of context. A little more back story about me is I have known God my whole life. Without a doubt had the Holy Spirit in me since childhood. But I didn’t know what practically a life with God was for me personally. No one around me besides my mom was walking with God. I grew to be ashamed of Him because I didn’t want to be different from everyone in my life. I was annoyed with being the “good girl”. So, in college I did my own thing. And my spirit surely was grieved and feeling the pain of that. The depression from my conviction was heavy. After college I gave my life to Christ again. I entered a community of Christians and was really trying to be about it. But I didn’t let God heal me first. I didn’t let him into a lot of myself to change me from the inside out. Layer by layer. Instead I put on the outer shell to just be like everyone around me. Again, I was trying to fit in. I thought it was real. Until I realized I was rooted on rocky soil. Because when some heavy pain came, I exploded. I wasn’t truly rooted in him so neither was His truth. I catapulted into the darkest season of my life.
Coming out of this I entered into my second coming to the Lord. This is where everything really changed. It started with some crazy vivid detailed dreams, some confirmations from so many people and hearing Gods voice with very clear direction about some specific situations in my life. I started from the ground up this last time and it has not been easy but it’s been beautiful. And oh man I’m not perfect. Sometimes I feel pressure to prove myself to people from the years I went off. But God! He is removing that shame from me, and desire to care and please others. I still fall so much, but I’m growing and there is Grace. All that matters is Him.
Like I’ve said so many times God has been busting through this box I’ve had Him in. I don’t want to be ashamed of Him anymore. I want to boldly share the stories of how and what specifically these things are besides just healings. Cause its oh so much more. I’m at a point where I’m seeing scripture in a different way. Revelation and experiences are bringing the scripture alive, just like our God. I’m seeing my promises in a different way. I’m also at a point where there is no turning back. I have literally seen God in ways that have blown my mind in such real ways I legit cannot believe anything else.
I have expressed in previous blogs my change in heart on some doctrines of the bible. Some views on some heavy topics in the Christian faith. I’ve been a bit hesitant of sharing a lot of things because I know im going to sound crazy. But I’ve come to a point where I know God is pushing me to just not care anymore. Cause legit walking with Him is crazy. And it is scary. Sharing faith is HARD. With non believers and believers.
People who knew me can hold onto my past in judgment and have trouble seeing me in a different way. Or be resistant to believe me change. Non-believers can just respectfully be resistant or feel judged just by me saying I’m a Christian or assume all Christians believe and behave in the same capacity all across the world. General statements are thrown and it can get intense. Believers if discussing difference in doctrine can also get intense. It’s a thin line with not wanting to be led astray and being arrogant with your view point that your mind may be blocking you from the real truth. And to be blunt let’s not be naïve in thinking that the enemy doesn’t have ground in certain doctrines of the Gospel to sway believers from believing and accepting the full gift of the cross.
So to get to my point. We are talking about Prophecy folks. I am strictly sharing what God has shown me and how He has been walking me into the gift of prophecy and what I have learned from it. If you wanna get into a deeper discussion about my experiences or what the word says about it slide into my dm’s. And if you want to read about our first official day of ministry with our host family in Nepal at a prophetic fellowship night read on to part 2. Cause it was…… something else!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
