I remember being so excited and having so much peace when God reveled to me my calling to the world race! It felt like God was holding me and he had given me so much confidence in who he was, and who I was in him!! I was ready!! Than I remember having so much fear, and anxiety and I let is still my joy, and I allowed my fear to make me fell unworth and like God wouldnt call someone like me to share his gospel. at first I didn’t realize I was even living in this fear, or that it had stole my happines. satan has decieved me so much and filled me with so much fear that I started to convin myself that the World race wasn’t for me. I remember being in tears, and just praying to God and I heard him speak to my fear, and I Remember in that moment I realized my fear was controlling every aspect of me. It wasn’t that I wasn’t worthy it was the fact that I took my trust off of God and allowed fear to tell me who I am. I remember reading psalms 46 and just talking to God and asking him to tale these lies that I tell myself and turn it into his truths. if we allow God to lead us where he wants us to go we have no reason to fear. He is the creator of all things and created us and knows our futures and if your like me and struggle with fear and anxiety I encourage you to just pray to God like he’s your best friend, and to live knowing Jesus does not give us fear but peace.
