I’m sharing with you a little bit of my journal thoughts for today…it’s jumbled and sometimes doesn’t always make sense but I’m just writing whatever the Lord sets on my heart.
Do you ever have a bad day? You seem so happy all the time, you’re the happiest person I know! I was reflecting on these questions, and I can confidently say that no I don’t have bad days…bad moments, sure. But those bad moments do not dictate the rest of my day.
And on the days where it seems like nothing is going right, the day is STILL good because God is good and He is in charge of my days. I daily give him permission to do what He wants in me.
This has been my mindset at least for the last 2 months and it’s because I realize and am fully aware that I am in the presence of God and that He lives within me. In months leading up to the race, I felt so distant from Him and didn’t know how to get closer to Him. But it was all in my head, I don’t have to ‘get closer’ or go somewhere to get in the presence of God because He is there 100% of the time.
I am changing constantly, being renewed again and again, molded, crafted into the daughter of Christ He has designed me to be. I am different than I was two months ago…I am more intentional with my words, actions and time…I am more vulnerable with my story and been able to reflect on how the Lord has worked in me…I do not isolate myself by watching T.V. daily…I do not find my worth in what others say about me…I know that my joy does not depend on my circumstances but from the Lord.
Last night I had a dream that I was pregnant, which usually means that some aspect of my personal life is growing or developing. I have no idea what this could mean but I know that it’s from the Lord!!
I am seeking wisdom as I have been reading a proverb a day…today (December 8th) So I read Proverbs 8, I found power in that in the Lord I have counsel and sound wisdom. I have insight and I have strength…Today He said I am the color blue…which symbolizes loyalty, strength, wisdom and trust. I am walking in this specifically today and then every day after.
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An update on what we are doing this month… my team is fully depending on the Lord this month… in everything-ministry, where to go, how to get there, where to stay, etc. It has already been amazing and the Lord has provided in abundant ways already. We are ready to receive what He has for us the rest of the month and I cannot wait to share many stories from seeds that were planted and conversations that were had.
Please be praying for my team and another team that is with us, as we love people here without an agenda!
If you have any prayer requests I would love to be intentionally praying for you!
–Jenny
