Currently: at ‘Launch’ waiting to go on this mission trip I have been dreaming and thinking about for the last 9 or so months…its finally (almost) here. But there is still more prep to do before we leave to start our journey to the Philippines on Tuesday. Even though this year will truly be amazing and life changing I can’t help but think about what is the Lord teaching me right NOW?
This word: NOW became especially important today because I purchased a giving key that was prophesized specifically over me and a word was stamped on the key…my word is NOW. I am not sure what this word needs to teach me but I am excited to focus on it each day, as it hangs on my neck to remind me that the Lord is constantly renewing and teaching me in the NOW.
Here are some other thoughts that popped into my head during worship tonight:
I am constantly living in and planning for tomorrow. Even when we are going from country to country it might be tempting to think about how amazing Thailand will be in a month when I am in the beautiful country of the Philippines right NOW(actually in a few days but you get the point).
I have also been convicted of that whenever I post on social media about the race that its all about fundraising and money instead of what the Lord is doing in me right NOW, and maybe I haven’t done that because I have not been pursuing him with a full authentic heart. He has provided immensely in all ways and I hardly give him even half the glory he deserves. I would absolutely not be 70% funded without Him, I don’t have the resources or the tools. AND it’s not my money!! It is the Lords money moving from person to person to do his work in the here and NOW.
I realized that my prayer life is not frequent as of late, sort of similar to a child asking for gifts from Santa. I turn to Him when I want something…but what if I just spoke to him as a friend? My dependence on Him would exponentially grow and I would become more intimate with my Heavenly Father. I have struggled with prayer life a lot and not felt intimacy with the Lord, but it’s because I don’t make time for Him, (not the other way around). My prayer life starts to change NOW, not in a month from today while I’m on the race, or in a few days when we actually begin our world travels. This prophetic key made me realize I need this NOW, and every moment for the rest of my life, not just these first few weeks and then it goes away.
I will continue to update what this word NOW means to me throughout this journey, as I know it will change.
With fundraising I just want to again give the Lord all the glory for the money He has brought in, so that I may go out into the nations to bring Kingdom to all people. But I feel exhausted (maybe because I feel like this is on me to fundraise and not HIM) so now I know I need to rely on Him more than ever to move mountains and stir hearts. If you would like to invest in furthering His kingdom using me as a vessel, donate on the link above. 🙂
Also I feel SO humbled that 130 people have subscribed to this blog to hear what I have to say. I feel so honored to tell the stories of the people that the Lord wants me to tell these stories.
Soon I will be blogging from the PHILIPPINES so stay tuned 🙂
-Jenny
