This race has taught me a lot about how to dream. About all the possibilities that we have in life and how much I’ve actually been missing out on. The little bubble that I used to put myself in back in the United States is now completely gone and I couldn’t be more grateful for that.
I would have never found my passion for traveling overseas and my passion for making relationships with people overseas. I have a new passion for the Latin culture and speaking Spanish. I have a big space in my heart for refugees and helping them figure out how to live a sustainable life. A life that they actually believe is worth living.
I would have never found out any of these things if I didn’t listen to God. If I didn’t listen to God, I may or may not be sitting at an office desk job right now hoping to make $60,000 a year. Not that that’s a bad thing, it just isn’t me. I used to think it was me, but it’s not. My passion for my life and the lives of others around me is bursting at the seams. I have so many dreams now. I have so many ideas and friendships to share these ideas with.
I have to admit, though. I’m pretty overwhelmed. I’m overwhelmed because I have so many passions and dreams, I don’t even know where to start. I have no idea where God wants me. You can probably ask my friends and family about how many times my thoughts have changed about what I’m doing after the race. It’s really exhausting. I want to live and work in Colombia. I want to learn to speak fluent Spanish. I have a passion for Venezuelan refugees and making relationships. I have a passion for street kids and helping them create and dream with Jesus in ways they never thought they could. I have all these passions, but I don’t have a vision.
It’s frustrating. I know exactly what I want to do, but sometimes it’s hard to see how to get there. It’s hard to be patient. I don’t want to be patient. I’m actually scratching out my eyeballs at the thought of waiting. I WANT TO GO TO COLOMBIA.
But I’ve also learned how important it is to wait. Maybe God has a better plan for you, or maybe your desires are exactly what He wants for your life. I can tell you one thing though, it’s never going to be worse than what you expect.
So, all to say, I’m being real with you when I say I want to do what I want to do. I am impatient sometimes. I have a bunch of dreams and wants and desires that I want to happen NOW. And I’m frustrated that I’m a dreamer, because I’m also someone who doesn’t hesitate to make things happen. But for now, I’m sitting and I’m waiting because I want to know if my Father thinks it’s a good idea too. Because He sure hasn’t failed me yet!
