Before arriving to our ministry I became aware that this month was going to be hard. I didnt know the half of it.
Quito is a beautiful city at 10,000 ft elevation. Which was definitely getting to my lungs the first week, along with the mile and a half walk we have one way to reach our ministry.
As a team we were all nervous about all squad month. (That just means all 26 of us are staying in the same place for one month) All the teams have different ministrys but we all sleep in the same place and eat at the same time. It has been great being back together so the whole worry about it being hard with the squad went out the window.
Now our ministry on the other hand has been a humbling first week. We’re working with disabled kids to young adults. Feed, cleaning, playing and doing therapy with them. I have felt so helpless and lost this week. it’s so emotionally Draining in a way I can’t describe. Pouring yourself into these kids who are so dependent on you.
This week we’ve struggled already with being angry, frustrated, sad and helpless. Questions like: ” why did God give me a body that I can control and didn’t give one to them?” “why can’t I just heal them?”
so many emotions have been poured out just with not understanding Gods plan with these kids lives, and our need or want to change that plan.
I am surprised to say that I am not the only one struggling this month with ministry, it has become a struggle for my whole team. Something we all are going to walk and grow through together this month.
on the fun side of things we get to go to the equator tomorrow! I’ll make sure to mention how that goes on my next blog 🙂
keep praying for my team and our walk this month.
