Satisfied. “To be in the state of contentment or fulfilment.”
Something God has been teaching me lately is to be satisfied in Him alone. With my mind sorting through 10,000 things at once, my heart that is so easily overwhelmed, and my soul that is pushing towards Christ in the midst of it all, it becomes so so easy to get lost and forget that God is the only thing I need. Lately I have been so overwhelmingly consumed by my desire to have all the answers. The future is never guaranteed and the unsettling feeling I get when I remember that I haven’t been given a clear answer yet, despite my constant prayers for one, has been discouraging. And in that I have let anxiety and fear seep into my thoughts and heart.
In all of this God has been telling me:
“Be content in the waiting. I am here, be satisfied in me. I will not leave, so don’t turn back now, just hold on a bit longer.”
So here’s the amazing thing.
God is the giver of peace. When I am stressed and uncertain in the waiting, I know I can be at peace because God, my heavenly father is enough. He is enough for me, regardless of what my heart wants or when my flesh fails, He never will. He is ever-present and desires the absolute best for me. And that truth? That truth seems to be forgotten a lot, but forgotten or not He is still there.
Just because the path ahead is uncertain does not mean that it’s time to give up. If anything it means that it’s time to push harder because God has something amazing on the other side of my fear. I don’t know the will of God, nor does anyone else, and just because I desire to know and ask for it, it doesn’t mean that I will get it quickly.
God knows what’s best.
God’s timing is what is best.
God is what is best.
So for now, despite my fear, I will keep knocking, keep pursuing, and keep running into the unknown and can be at peace in the fact that no matter where I go, I am satisfied by Christ alone.
