I’ve always been told that I have to prepare for the future, and that I have my entire life to do something meaningful and follow God’s call, but is that really true? Saying that leads to the assumptions that I know how long I have, when in reality I might not be here tomorrow. And that reality got me thinking about my intentions with my call from God towards missions. I’ve felt this call for the past six years; having God peak my desire when I was able to go to Ethiopia five years ago. Since I was young and inexperienced, I knew that the time wasn’t right, but as I’ve gotten older instead of embracing that call, I assumed that I had to finish school, get my life started, and then focus on the call God placed on my heart.
In late October of last semester, I was sitting on my bed in my dorm, alone on a Friday night trying to get ahead on assignments for the next week. As I was taking a break, I felt a feeling that I usually put aside, in an absolutely overwhelming fashion. My heart was unsettled. I felt as if although college was what was expected of me, that I was in the wrong place. Instead of going full in with God, that I was somehow telling him to wait for me to be ready for him. So I got to searching. I looked for summer programs, semester ones, and finally found The World Race. When I began to read about it and what others had experienced through it, I could feel my heart exploding in my chest, but doubt set in. How could I just up and take a break from my life for a year, leaving those I loved and everything that was expected of me? But I knew I couldn’t ignore the call this time, so I prayed, and prayed, and prayed. I wrestled over the thought until one night I opened up my devotional and read the title, “Shut up and Get Moving”. God must have a good laugh when he speaks to us through things like this- and before I even fully read it, I sent in my application. Over the next month before my acceptance I kept quiet about this decision. I tried to only focus on the Lord’s will, because I knew if I told others, my desire to please would get in the way, and it would not longer be just Him influencing my decision. When I was accepted, I broke down. I knew that was the decision God wanted me to make, and although there was still fear, the next day I accepted.
I don’t want this call on my life to be put off for someday, when God is calling me today. I have my whole life to accomplish my own desires but God’s call will not just sit and wait for me to become ready. Something I’ve learned is he takes the unequipped. I couldn’t be farther from feeling ready for a journey like this, but God says regardless he wants me. So why The World Race? And why now? Because I’m ready to chase after God wholeheartedly and jump into His call on my life.
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Thanks!
Lots of love,
Faith
