The last two blogs consisted of telling you about the ministry and giving a gift. Now I will be vulnerable again and share with you about my personal growth. There are three things that I am going to base it off of.
1.) The phrase “ walk with them in the wilderness, don’t take them to paradise.”
It opened my eyes to what I have been doing. So the first thing is always to celebrate that you recognize it. I said I am so sorry Lord that I have not been wanting to walk with people through their trials but I wanted to fix it right away for them. By doing that I wanted them to feel loved, comfortable, heard, and seen. I didn’t look at the big picture. I only saw love as being comfortable. The Lord opened my eyes wide. I didn’t know I was so blinded. Love sometimes hurts as it is molding us to be the pot the Lord wants us to be.
We are in the potters hand. Sometimes he has to heat us up to get the right shape or break us to become a better useful pot for the Lord. In saying this Love hurts but it is for the goodness of us and for the glory of God.
I shared with my team that this is not what I want to do. But I want to walk with them in the wilderness because it’s in the wilderness where God meets us. I am so thankful the Lord healed my blindness.
2.) Boldness!
Yes for real! It is fun! This month I stepped into boldness by being very uncomfortable in teaching English to school girls. English was never a friend of mine in school. It was always hard. But with God all things are possible. In my weakness God is strong. It was only through the work of the Holy Spirit (who is my helper) that I was able to do that.
I shared with groups about human trafficking. One day I didn’t know that I had to share until the morning of. The Lord says to be ready at all times. Even if I don’t feel like I don’t know what to share if I say yes to Jesus he will speak through me. All I have to do is be obedient.
I preached in church. I shared my testimony. In all of these things the Lord was with me every step of the way. Over and over again the comfort of the Holy Spirit came.
3.) REST
Seriously, Rest? Yes, Rest in the Lord! In the beginning of the month my squad mentor send me a link to a podcast called “Rest.”
I listened to it. I was convicted by it. The phrase ( “I live in many but rest in few”) that caught my attention and hurt me because I am guilty of that. Often times I don’t take time to let Jesus rest in my house.
I am growing much in that area and it will never be filled until I meet Jesus.
Isaiah 53:5 says: “But he was pierced for our rebellion, crushed for our sins. He was beaten so we could be whole. He was whipped so we could be healed.”
Jesus was bruised for my hidden sins.
Jesus was pierced for my outward sins.
Jesus was beaten so I can be whole.
Jesus was whipped so I can be healed from all sickness and diseases.
If I rest in the Lord. I can work from a place of the finished work of the cross.
When Jesus said “IT IS FINISHED” that is what he meant. I can work from a place that the work has already been done. Jesus is in my heart. Jesus is the “prince of peace” so peace is already in my heart all I need to do is actively walk it out. I need to take action and choose to walk in peace. In the midst of chaos I stop and talk to the Lord. On a very busy day I can seek out ways to be with him and one way is singing praises to him as I work.
There are so many things that I can do to invite the peace of God in my heart. The list is endless as his Love is endless. This is the amazing God we serve a never ending circle of love.
