Wow what a month it has been here in Nepal. So much things and people have been perfectly placed to encourage my relationship with God. It is so easy for me to think like me and try and understand others without fully seeking to grow them and myself. There is a lot of thing that my heart feels in this moment as I sit here in Katmandu Nepal. I have an ability to do mighty things under the direction of God and it becomes very hard for me to hear what the lord is saying when I am distracted by the others around me. How blessed is my life how thankful I am to fully trust in God with my days and with my future. It is much about taking time spending it with our creator our glorious father God. I know very few things in this life and the one thing that I never want to forget is that God has always shown up in my life when I have asked. Our hearts and minds get caught up in the world but our spirit and the spirit that lives in us will never be shaken. I reflect back on how far I have truly come and how far God has carried me. I am learning to let Gods will be done in my life daily as it is easy to fall into the temptations of this life. People have huge impact on the way we think the way we live and the choices we make. What does it look like to live fully in where God wants you? It’s a simple thing to ask and I fully believe no one on this earth can truly answer this question. Reason #1 we are not God! Reason #2 we cannot comprehend what God has in store. Reason #3 we are here on earth with a 24hr day and a 7 day week. Reason #4 Jesus has not yet returned. Reason #5 you don’t know yourself well enough.
In my heart I feel that a lot of life consists of doing what others want for our life. I look at myself and reflect back on my life thus far and find this pattern of following the worlds standard of the right things to do. Why? Is it biblical to work until I retire? Am I enjoying the way that I am living? Who do I allow to influence me? Why do I constantly challenge people and things? Well, I have reflected a lot on my life and what drives me to accomplish things. It comes down to this common answer, in the bible it says to work as if you were working for the lord in other words do your best works in all you do. I constantly catch myself falling into the biblical trap of justifying my actions in accordance to the bible and not always according to what God is asking me to do! This is so important that we actually allow God to direct our path and constantly press into seeking the father deeply and passionately. We find ourselves doing the mundane and over time getting frustrated derailing our process of thinking and redirecting our purpose In life.
Many times in the scripture there is mention of just how long people have had to wait in order to receive or even get a response from God. We live in a life today of such haste with anything and everything we do. We go faster than we should on the road, we constantly pack our schedules, we rush from thing to thing or person to person, job to job, Why? I have taken a long time understanding myself, well still learning myself and I find that even when I have nowhere to be I still rush. I believe we create in our life a pace that becomes ingrained and habitual making it near impossible for us to recognize how much in our daily life we miss opportunities to serve the Kingdom of God. I see it this way, our schedule of life creates pockets of time that we can choose to fill or we can choose to slow It down and ask God how it is going up there? how is my heart? what would you have me do with my time here today? We as a people choose daily what to do with our life and our choices affect our future. Buying a house causes you to be bound to work in order to keep the roof over your head, getting a new job that requires 70 hour work week exhausts your energy. All of the choices we make today affect the rest of our life and sadly the world pressures us to fall into this way of living. If I am bound by bills how can I find time and space to fully live in Gods will? If you ask God to bless and bring miracle’s without actually knowing what season you are in and why you are in that season what do you think happens? You must take time to actually know who God is and step out of the worldly view of life and really rest with our father God, having conversations, allowing time a lot of time if needed for the response. Our pursuit of relationship with God actually determines the amount of fruit we will see in our life. If you are far from God get back to where you talk like old friends! God will give you grace this is a promise.
It’s not a hard thing to have a relationship with God, it’s a hard thing to maintain a relationship with God.
It’s not an easy life that we live its actually filled with a lot of heartbreak and struggle you cannot know anyone by the way they look on the outside. This is the reason we need so badly to take the time out of our daily mundane life to cultivate our relationship with God pressing into our internal real struggles of life.
This world race mission for me is not just a one year mission trip! it is actually a test of my trust, my faith, my relationship with God. I constantly check my heart and fall short every time to the Glory of God. The struggle that I actually have this last month is managing my time with God, over people and over mission. I can say it’s not easy to sit and cry out to God knowing you have not spent sufficient time resting in Him, it breaks my heart that I fall short. God gives us the grace that we can never return allowing us to learn and press in further to loving God, yourself and trusting that all things work for Good in the kingdom of God. Our father God actually wants us more than we want him! It is not easy to manage time resting in the arms of God and it becomes very difficult in community, if you’re like me very easily distracted and driven by goals. God does not hold us to what we have done yesterday or even our past, Jesus has dressed each of us in honorable dazzling white clothing suited for queens and kings. God sees all of us through the perfect lens that Jesus had to give his life for.
We will always fall short of the glory of God let not that hold you back from growing into more of who God is calling you to be.
