When my mentor, Megan, promoted me to write this blog I didn’t know and still don’t know if it’s even possible to write out how exactly the Lord has used these nine months to transform my relationship with him and In turn, how he transformed me. So I decided to write about something that I’ve been learning about over the last nine months: dependency-abiding solely in Papa and always remaining in intimate communication with him.
Reading the Bible: getting to know the Fathers heart changes ours. When we dig into scripture we unlock so many different facets of Gods character, he reveals new things to us, teaches us, corrects us, and brings so much freedom. I can easily say that reading my Bible each morning is one of my very favorite parts of my whole day! Finding a secret place with the father is vital! We become so incredibly dependent on that time and inturn, on the Father. When I don’t have time in my secret place with Papa I can feel a shift in my attitude, desires, speech, actions, and mindset. I’ve become dependent on God’s word to fill me up with his spirit and to fuel my ever action and word.
Rest: I’ve learned about true rest. Both spiritual and physical. In high school, I loved being busy, running from one thing to another. Leaving the house at 7am and not getting back till 9:30pm. People tried to warn me I would get burnt out, but I wouldn’t listen. I thought I could do everything I wanted, and I just about did. I thought the race would be the same. High pace, upbeat type of schedule, always going and never stopping. Man! I was wrong. I learned so much about the value of sleep and taking time to rest and renew. I learned about how to rest my soul and mind by spending time in the presence of Papa. Now that I have downtime and take hold of it I have found myself having more energy and being able to operate without exhaustion overtaking me. Ive learned that I actually enjoy and need time just to myself. (This is something I never did in high school because I figured that extroverts never needed to be alone.) I’ve now become dependent on rest 1. Getting enough sleep and downtime 2. Allowing my souls to renew itself everyday through reading God’s word, prayer, and worship.
Prayer: I can genuinely say that I need to be in constant communication with the Father. I mean, I NEED TO BE! over these past nine months I’ve learned, experiences, and grown in how I hear the Holy Spirit and I have become so dependent on it. I love constantly being in communication with God, asking him what he is saying in the moment and asking him where he wants me to go and who he wants me to talk to. I’ve become totally dependent on the spirit and the art of prayer for my every move.
I would like to finish by saying this, praise God that I am so dependent on him! That was my BIGGEST prayer request before I left for the race was that I would become dependent on God, and though I still have a long way to go: so much more struggles, growth, and celebration, I know that God is always there and I must remain in him and allow him to remain in me. Glory to God for answering prayers!
