Last summer I wrote a blog titled “Dear Me” from my (at the time) current self to the person I’d become on the race (aka who I am right now). Here’s my response:
How the heck did she know?
Guys, Lil Cindy got it all SPOT ON. She knew, dang it she knew from the beginning. This girl is amazing!!
The post begins begins with Lil Cindy talking about Rock Ridge, and from that weekend I KNEW I’d be working their this summer. The community and environment up there is amazing, and even from last July I already knew that I’d be returning.
All the encouragement Lil Cindy wrote, how she built me up and called me to keep fighting the good fight, it’s all I needed to hear right now. Honestly, I have five weeks until I go home. It’d be so easy to check out now and just wait for it all to end, but why would I do that when I could have MORE? More fellow believers, more adventures, more gifts of Gods Grace, more than anything I could dream up or imagine. I have five weeks to leave Costa Rica better than I found it, and I want to take every chance to do just that.
I remember how I was last summer, all my sins and quirks alike. I was really cool, but the woman I am now is someone truly special. She’s got a lot of growing to do (that’s for sure) but I am so thankful for who God has made and is making me to be.
Guys, just go read that blog. Lil Cindy says it better than I could. She hadn’t even left the country yet and somehow she knew what was coming. The race has been the hardest thing I’ve ever chosen to walk through (it’s still not as bad as my parent’s divorce, but is still incredibly hard). I could have never predicted just how much it would hurt to be wrecked by God, and if I had known the depths of all I would experience I don’t know if I would have agreed to go. However, somehow I knew even back then the brokenness I’d experience and how the Lord would provide.
Wow, awesome job Lil Cindy. Sometimes I miss you, but I’m so happy I got to be you for awhile. Don’t worry, I’ll take good care of the woman God is shaping me to be.
~CLS
