If you would’ve asked me how I was doing last week, I’d have a negative answer for you. I was struggling with anything and everything that was placed in front of me. (However, through it, I can confidently now say that I am an introvert).
The past few months, our team has had great freedom on where we go and what we do near our ministry. Many times, before the World Race, I would have a difficult time exploring new places I’ve never been on my own. Yet these past two months, I have loved and wanted to explore the city and the culture.
Coming into this month we knew our living situation would look different than what we’ve been blessed with the past two months. But even so, this month looked a lot different than we expected. Expectations, they really wreck ya. You would think that setting expectations low would be okay, but that often isn’t the case.
We’ve been placed in a small community with an incredible host. We traded in luxury living for a one room (Malaysian style) studio apartment with a kitchen and a bathroom. Very simple. Our ministry looks like planning a few programs for the church and this is done at the local coffee shop, one of the few places where Wi-Fi is available.
With this though, we are pretty limited to these two places and few places in-between. Which has made it difficult to escape somewhere on my own. I got into this mindset of being trapped, physically and emotionally.
We still have freedom in this town, but it’s just different than our usual. I allowed myself to be overcome by all my emotions rather than find an outlet to let them go. Often times I bring them to friends first, but having disconnected myself, it wasn’t an option. Which then made me fully bring all these things to God first. Uh gosh, and what a freeing feeling.
He wants to hear from us. There is nothing wrong with bringing these to friends, but it’s only after you have asked God for help. There are many pieces of my heart that are being fixed individually and then molded together. I am being fully present with where I’m at and fully appreciating who I am, rooted in Christ first and then so much more.
I am still fundraising to be fully funded by the end of January. This is where y’all come into play. Since I am not on social media, if you could share my blogs and my story. I have around $5000 left to raise and whether you feel called to donate or just to share, both are a huge help and will get me one step closer. I can’t thank all my supporters enough, together we’ve raised over $13,000 and God has provided big and I know He isn’t done.
