If you’re still following along, this is blog three of four in this series. You can read one and two here. YAY
In many friendships, I can become frustrated for a period of time before I stand up for myself. And this is a repeating habit in many areas of life. I allow myself to be mistreated or what seems underappreciated.
You hear it over and over again that no one deserves to be mistreated. But do you fully believe it? I’ve heard it so many times and I knew there were many times when I should have been treated better in a situation, but I told myself things would get better soon, so I allowed myself to continue to be treated in a way that I knew I shouldn’t have.
I let my heart settle in these friendships. I want the best for people so sometimes I let myself believe that I can fix things and be a crutch, but that isn’t always the case.
I was at a point in month two, where I was so overjoyed and loved I didn’t know what to think and I don’t know the last time I have felt that way. And while praying at our recent debrief in Bangkok, Thailand, I was asking God why this was. He told me it’s because I haven’t allowed anyone to mistreat me. When there was someone or something I became frustrated with, I stood up for myself.
I fully believed the statement above, finally. God popped back in and was like you are so worthy and I see you as a queen.
If God sees me as a queen, then why don’t I believe it? Again, slowly understanding that I am worthy of being treated with greatness and when there are times that this isn’t the case, to approach the conflict or walk away from it. To not let my heart settle in these situations.
In any relationship or friendship, I can’t be with someone until they seen me as worthy of being a queen which is ONLY AFTER I fully believe that I am worthy because God says I am. Woah. Today I am putting on my crown and remembering how God made me unique and to love myself as so.
I found myself a gold crown ring that now serves as a constant reminder of the great queen God sees me as. WE are all worthy of greatness, don’t doubt that for a second.
Love,
QUEEN B
I am still fundraising to be fully funded by the end of January. This is where y’all come into play. Since I am not on social media, if you could share my blogs and my story. I have around $5000 left to raise and whether you feel called to donate or just to share, both are a huge help and will get me one step closer. I can’t thank all my supporters enough, together we’ve raised over $13,000 and God has provided big and I know He isn’t done.
