Tonight I’m back at it, reading “UnInvited”. The page I opened up to couldn’t be more like where I’m at emotionally today, finding it so hard to trust God. Trusting Him to keep me safe isn’t a concern, I have lived abroad; trusting Him to provide when I don’t see how He can catch me is another matter. I gave the last of the money in my checking account to Him, fasted and prayed for a week and put myself out there… trying out my faith, like never before. To be honest, the last 24-120 hours have been wrecking havoc on my anxiety. I even got an IRS notice saying I been audited and me and my ex husband owe them almost $700! God, that’s the opposite of miraculous provision!
Now I’m not sharing this to garner pity, but I’m confident despite the setbacks that He has a way, and for once I want to be on the side of believing Him till He comes through; not just giving up short of the finish line and looking foolish when He pulls it off anyway. I hope you’ll be in prayer with me for peace and provision, and that God would take care of me and my teammates as well as the ministries and people we are going to support.
Much love!
