I’m gonna be honest, this all is a bit overwhelming.
With all the prep I need to finish over the next couple months, to funds still coming in, and balancing all this with the demands of working 60+ hours a week for a traveling internship, I really don’t know what to think. My life seems to be moving faster than it ever has.
I’m sure I’m not the only one who feels like this, but it does seem that way sometimes. I get caught up in worrying so much about the how and when that I forget the who and why. Why am I leaving my home for 11 months? Why am I “putting my life on hold” for a year? Why am I doing any of this? Who am I doing this for?
Jesus.
I don’t always know the how, what, where, or when. But, I do know the who and why, and they trump all else.
So, as I sit here writing this, my emotions are ranging from I’m not sure, to I really have no clue. But, my who and why cover all of that. Despite everything going on, I have this strange peace about me like, yeah, i know I have a lot to get done over the next couple months, but that’s ok. I’ll be alright. I know that it’ll all come together and I just need to let it happen.
I’m a Christian which means my life is God’s. So really, I’m just along for the ride, and it’s ok not to know where I’m headed or how I’ll get there. All I need to know is that my who is Jesus, and my why is for Him. So, let’s go!
(I know this jumps all over the place so sorry if it’s hard to follow, but there’s strength in vulnerability so here it is. If anyone relates I would encourage you to look at and study Matt. 6:33-34 and 2 Cor. 4 and just take it one day at a time. I’m learning that God has us where we’re supposed to be, even if it doesn’t look like it)
Until next time!
-Ben
