I am not on this trip to save people or convert people into Christians. God doesn’t need me to do His work. His work is already happening without my help. However He has CHOSEN ME to reach out and bring His joy through me to people around the world. I am just a small piece in the puzzle. I am honored to share my heart and my joy to other people this year. I am only in each place I visit for a short period of time though, and I worry that the people we are helping will grow attached or be sad when I leave. However, God is already present and bring joy to these people without my help. Just because I will leave doesn’t mean that God and His joy leaves when I leave. That’s the best part, God is always with us and wants to bring us joy no matter who is in our lives or the circumstances surrounding us.
Sometimes I ask God why did you choose me for this trip. I find myself feeling like I am not cut out to do the work God is asking me to do. I sometimes feel not strong enough in my faith to be a missionary. I struggle with being obedient and that leaves me feeling discouraged about all of these things I think I lacked. So I took these feelings to God and and he told me to look where I was at. He said: “By you taking a leap of faith and saying YES to the World Race is in itself an act of obedience.” That was eye opening to me and helped me feel more confident that I am right where I am suppose to be. In God’s Word, in the gospel of Mark, it says that the disciples didn’t need much to do God’s work, he told them that themselves alone were the only equipment they needed (Mark 6:8; MSG). After I read this, God told me that I am fully equipped because I have the Holy Spirit in me. God’s Word says that the Holy Spirit will give me the right words to say when the time is right (Matthew 10:19-20; MSG). This, for me was very reassuring, because at times I don’t feel equipped to be here or that I don’t have the right words to say to people.
I know I am in process and I am still learning and growing into my purpose and calling. I know that this is where I meant to be and when I don’t feel “enough” to be on the Race, God works through me and supplies me with what I need to carry out His work effectively. He encourages me to not focus on what I lack, but to continue pursuing the path he has carved out for me. After all, He wouldn’t call me to be here without helping me through it and fulfilling His promise: “I will never leave you or forsake you”(Deuteronomy 31:6; NIV).
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UPDATE:
My team Ahavah made it to our third country: EL SALVADOR. We are working this month with a ministry called SUS HIJOS. Their mission is to love and help orphaned and abandoned children in San Salvador (the capital). Our team this month is living in an apartment right in the city. We are excited to partner with Sus Hijos and have our first month of just team AHAVAH! Please continue to keep our team and this ministry in your prayers this month.
Thank you!!
Blessings,
-B
