When you do not hear God speak what do you do? Before the race there where seasons in my life were I felt God was far away, it felt like he left me. I would pray or worship in hopes he would show up again. I use to think he left me because of something I did, or did not do. One thing I have learned is GOD NEVER LEAVES YOU! EVER! There is nothing you can do to make God leave. He is ALWAYS there.
Recently God has been teaching me that when he is not speak, it is time to make big discussions! I learned that I can trust myself to make the right decision when God is not speaking to me directly. Every big decision in my life God takes a back seat, so to say. He is there, but allows me to make the decision on my own. I liken in to a parent letting there adult children make there own decision. You can give them advice point them in the right direction, but at the end of the day it is there choice to turn right or left. It is there choice to go, or stay.
I have gotten to the point in my walk with the Lord he is teaching me to trust myself. I know I can trust God, and now I need to know that I can make wise decisions on my own. I still pray and ask for guidance and like a good parent God is always there for that. But he takes the back seat on my decision making to see where and what I will decide. Then once the decision is made he guilds that decision for his glory.
One example of this is for the past month I have not heard God or felt God close by. This does not mean he was not there it means it was time for me to choose. Right, or left? I have been praying what I should do when I get home. Should I go out again maybe lead a squad? Go to G42? Go home? I had been waiting and asking God what I should do. I prayed and kept asking, but he only thing he told was, “make some plans.” I did just that I looked into G42 emailed them talked to them. I had a plan A, and a plan B, and a plan C. After asking myself why I wanted to go to G42 I realized I wanted to go because I was not ready to go home yet. Just because I am not ready does not mean I am not suppose to be there. So I looked into several other options non of which I felt called to. Then after having a conversation with a couple of my squad mates I realized something.
I was scared. I was scared to be home and get stuck there. To go back to the same thing. God had already told me I would be home for “a season.” I was fine with that as long as the season was a few weeks. As long as “the season” looked how “I” wanted it to look. God’s season’s, and my season’s look very different. My season looks like being there long enough to prepare for the next trip. The next mission field. His season look’s like abiding in him while still making plans for the next step. So after much contemplation and prayer. I finally made decision. I will go home and make the plans for the next step. I trust God even when he does not speak. I will plan and when his “season” is over then I will make my next move. Preparing of course for what needs to be put in place to be able to move the moment he says “GO!”
Now the decision has been made! God did not coddle me like a small child. He said choose and what ever you choose I will be there. He trusted me to make the right decision. And just like any good parent he gave the advice, and let me figure it out. He new I would not make this decision based on fear or ignorance. He knew I would talk to my squad mates. He knew once I made the decision I would stick with it. He knew he had given me the tools I needed to make a wise choice with out him standing two inches away pushing me one way or the other. He stepped back he gave me my options, he knew I would choose wisely. I have realized in my walk with the lord, when I am not hearing directly from him it is because there is a decision I must make. God knows I will not make one hastily. I will talk, walk, pray, read, and most importantly listen to wisdom before making a decision to quickly. I am learning to trust myself. When God is your motive for everything you do he puts the doors in front of you, knowing which ever one you choose will be for his glory!
If you are in a point in your life and you feel you are not hearing from God. Maybe just maybe it is decision making time for you to. God has not left you. God will never abound you. He is just letting you know with out saying anything, “Choose!”
Sound Counsel:
1)If God is not the center of your decision its probably not God! (Psalm 32:8)
2)Be wise, seek sound counsel! (Proverbs 15:22)(Proverbs 1:23)
3)Seek the answers in the Word of God! (Psalm 119:105)
4)Ask your self the motive behind the decision you are making? (James 1:5-8)
5)Pray!!!!!! (1 Thessalonians 5:17-18)
6)Jump! When God is not speaking most likely he is waiting for you to move, SO MOVE! (Proverbs 1:24)
