I would like to tell you a little bit about what I have been speaking to God about. I have been asking him recently to learn wisdom on a much deeper level. I have been praying to see like he see’s, to think like he thinks’s. So the first thing he does is send me to Proverbs. The whole book is about how to gain wisdom! God is so good! The more I read it the more I am learning about how to learn wisdom and what I can do tangibly to understand who he is and who wants me to be. Some of what I have read, I have herd before. It was just head knowledge to me until now. Now that I have asked him to learn, he is making the head knowledge, heart knowledge!
I have also asked to to learn more about, my spiritual gifts. And God has put some AMAZING people in front of me! They may not have the answers, but don’t judge me when I ask them questions. And even are helping look for answers with me! I love them!!! These gifts I use to believe whole heartily where a curse. And before I had a relationship with God they where in fact just that. Now sitting on the other side of redemption, and Gods grace I know now that I have these gifts for a reason. I do not know yet what that reason is. I know God will open the doors when it is in his timing, that he will teach me through the Holy Spirit. That he will lead me to the people who have the answers. I trust he is faithful, and wants me to learn to use my gifts for his glory.
I am reading a book that has given me some insight on this it is called “Secrets of the Seer”, it has given me a different point of view on what these gifts are. How the writer is able to use his gifts for Gods glory. I am excited to see what God does next.
You also have Holy Spirit gifts God has given to you. If you are wondering what they are just ask God to reveal them to you. I still have more questions than I do answers but the minute I asked he started answering them for me. I know it will be a journey of learning about myself, and learning who God is on a deeper level. But he will never abandon me, and I know without a doubt he will be there for me when my questions get difficult.
So in short I am learning to know God more deeply. I am learning who I am in Christ more deeply. I will not pretend to have it all together. Life is hard, and I did it for a long time in my own power ,IT WAS MISERABLE!!! Now I am letting God lead, and this journey with God as been more remarkable than I could ever have imagined. I can not wait to see the next steps God has for me!
