Psalm 56:3 “When I am afraid, I put my trust in you.”
I am scared to go on the World Race. I am scared to leave my family and to leave the comforts of home. But mostly, I am scared to see the brokenness in these countries; to have my life changed forever. I am scared to come back a different person. Scared to have a different view on everything. Scared of heartbreak. Scared of brokenness. Scared of the unknown. Scared to change. I am scared.
But I am okay with being scared! I realize that as a Christian, I wasn’t made for the simple life. For that reason, I am perfectly okay with my life being changed forever. I want God’s path for my life because I know it will be good and joyful. Giving him the pen to my life and allowing him write my story gives me peace and happiness (and honestly… trying to write my own story sounds terrible and stressful). I know he is so good through and through. If his plan for me is changing my view of the whole world… then I’ll take it! I want eyes to see what he sees, a heart that breaks for what breaks his, to be his light, to serve him boldly, to testify.
I haven’t really let myself feel those feelings until this past week. Launching for the race always seems so far in the future, but allowing myself to feel these things has made this trip feel so much more real! I can feel God preparing my heart for what’s coming. He’s teaching me that it is okay to be scared because he has me right in the palm of his hands. He knows exactly what he is doing- I have no reason to fear! Knowing this gives me so much strength.
I am excited to change lives, to be a part of God’s kingdom work, to spread love. I am excited to build new relationships and to have a special community with everyone on my team. I love the idea that I will be bringing freedom and sharing truth. I love that I get to serve and live my life for my Jesus, my Prince of Peace! I am excited to experience God in a new way and learn new things about him. I am excited to see the person I become!
I am ready for my life to be radically wrecked and redefined. Thank you, Jesus!
!!! A little update… I am 91.33% fundraised-woohoo!!! Feeling EXTREMELY blessed and thankful for that. I will be going to Georgia in 27 days for training camp (July 10-20). I will gain some experience that will help prepare me for the field along with meeting everyone who is on my squad for the first time! I will launch for the race on September 8th, which is coming up quickly!! Until I leave I plan to spend as much time with friends and family as I can and also continue to work at Welcome Place Childcare to raise money for my trip! Life is good!!
Lots of love,
Anna Katherine
