Hey friends!! Training camp is August 8-18th. I’m SUPER EXCITED!! :))
I want to share with you a vision God gave me. You might be thinking it is weird God gave me a vision, please just go with me on this.
I was praying recently and telling God how I was frustrated with myself. I thought I was more mature in certain areas and could have handled certain situations better.
The vision is of me standing before God. I am outside in a city where there are a few buildings, a road on my right, a lake on my left and woods nearby. I am standing in the grass at the bank of the lake. It seems to be evening and a storm is brewing, the sky is filled with blue and green lighting and God is in the sky.
I find myself standing before God. God is looking at me, but I’m not looking at him. I’m preoccupied and looking down on the grass around me. There are items in the grass and they represent all of my mistakes, short-comings, failures, mess-ups, distractions, and worries. As I am standing before God distracted by these items, God speaks to me and says, ‘Only look at Me.’ I look up and see God’s eyes. I can only see His eyes, eyes that burn with love and intense passion for me and I just stare at them. Then God motions with His hand for me to come to Him and with an enticing daring look that says ‘If you come after me, it’ll be a great adventure, better than anything else.’ … … As I look at the terrain in front of me, I notice God’s path is variable, changing with grassy hills, mountains, bodies of water, etc. There’s no clear path to take. No paved sidewalk or road. The journey changes.
The look in God’s eyes is the best part of the vision for me. A reminder that going after God is so good and worth it and that I don’t have to be ashamed. God wants me to pursue Him even when I’ve messed up.
The vision ties in so well with a book I just finished reading, Emotionally Healthy Spirituality by Peter Scazzero. In the book Scazzero talks about how all of Jesus’s followers and disciples had personality flaws and made plenty of mistakes. However, they all “did have one great quality: they were willing. That is all God asks of us.” So when I think about how I am not where I want to be, I remember this vision. God deeply desires for me to pursue Him no matter what.
Are you willing? Are you willing to start where you are?
