As human beings we seek to constantly be filling our time, in fact what we probably dread most in this world is waiting. We live in a world of instant everything, a world where if we aren’t planning out every second of our lives we aren’t headed for success. We have all become conditioned to fear the unknown, to fear the silence, empty planners, and most of all the waiting place. I write to you from this oh so uncomfortable waiting place, one that is filled with anxiety and an incessant need to know what the future holds.
Since my acceptance to the World Race gap year over two months ago, I will admit I have fallen victim to the doubt and anxiety that come with waiting. I have struggled to find a place of peace in the unknown. I tried my best to plan for a future that I can’t possibly predict instead of letting God’s all knowing hand shape my months to come. I have wasted far too much time, willing time to be faster, wishing my last months of high school away. I have found my self daydreaming about the people that God will allow me to meet and the people that I will spend my nine months with,that I have forgotten to shine the Love of God on the people that surround me now. I have focused too much energy and worry on the future that is not mine to plan and not enough on the present.
What I have failed to see throughout these last couple of months is that God does not work more in one season than He does in another. God’s will is constant. He uses every period of our lives to do His work, if we allow Him to be the king of our days. I have written off whole months of my life, under the impression that God’s purpose is waiting for me in Cambodia when in reality my mission is love and its right here right now. God is always and everywhere.
I thank God for this season of preparation that He has provided for me, and I pray that instead of willing the time to pass I will make it a season of trust and time alone with my creator. But also that I will use these months as He wishes me to and be in a constant state of prayer for those around me.
In Christ,
Alyssa Clark
“Give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.”
1 Thessalonians 5:18
