so it’s about 6:50 in the morning I woke up at 4:30 to head to the airport around 5 or so. I wish I could tell you I woke up ready to take on the world race training camp but I would b lying! Truth is I woke up sad, scared, excited and nervous, Sad because I am leaving sam for longer than I have ever left him. ( just typing this is making me tear up) scared because i don’t really know what to expect of course I know the basics of no shower, sleep in your tent, eat foreign food everyday, bucket showers but that’s all I really so feat of the u is hitting hard! Excited because I have the best squad mates that anyone could ask for and I am so ready to finally meet all the people that have supported me cheered me on and lifted me up. Also on this trip I will get to meet the team I will b traveling with for the year and get a chance to bond with them. Meeting all the new ppl, seeing God move and being apart of an amazing team are all great things to be excited about and truth be told I have been trying to focus on all of those over anything else! Nervous obviously because I’m meeting a ton of new ppl and what if they don’t like me or what if I’m the “weird” one cuz let’s b honest I’m a little weird lol! ( i just call it how I see it ??) the fear of the unknown strikes again! Leaving for training camp has made all of this all seem more real than it ever had before, like I am for real getting on a plane this time in 2 months that will start a trip of a lifetime and the things that will be done on that trip will b unparalleled by anything I’ve ever experienced. But I’m still leaving everything I am comforetable with and all the people I know and food I like! That is scary to me and laying in bed last night I had to constantly remind myself that this is a calling this is where God needs me and he won’t call me to anything that I am not equipped to handle.
But never the less it’s still scary and I am facing this head on and in rhe next couple weeks I hope I get on here after training camp and I read this and laugh because I was being absolutely ridiculous! Lol so until next time team please me my team and my squad and all the racers in your prayers this week will call all of us out of our comfort zones and our norms and we will need all the strength we can get!
