A few weeks ago when we were in Honduras we were at something called Awakening. Awakening is when multiple squads are in the same region and adventures likes to bring them together. My K squad and I got to meet up with racers on F squad in their month 11 and P squad in their month 2 in Valle de Angeles (Valley of Angels). While there we learned a lot about ownership and what it looks like to own your life.
That message didn’t come lightly imagine dropping an egg on the floor and trying to pick up all the pieces by hand and remake the shape of the egg. Well thats hard and practically impossible without help.
What if we asked people for help, would that be easier? Yes it would but the egg wouldn’t hold together. What if we asked God for help, would that be easier? Not necessarily because God wants us to bring the pieces to him and ask him about them and that can hurt and be very hard to do but I am up to the challenge.
After that weekend in Valle de Angeles, I was at a state of unrest and I have been in this struggling ever since. Due to a lot of processing emotionally and mentally I made the decision to be settled in God’s peace, and, in making that decision, I found that there was more peace for me back at home in the States than on the Race.
Following approximately a 78 hour travel day that was from Wednesday December 5th to Saturday December 8th where we traveled from Siguatepeque, Honduras to I believe Chipoka, Malawi on Lake Malawi. We came together as a squad for debrief. At the end of those 4 days when we got new teams and started our Africa leg of the race, I got on a plane and headed back to the States with approximately a 38 hour travel day.
I know for a darn fact I could finish and do alright, but I don’t know what kind of toll that would have taken on me mentally and emotionally, so I came home.
Do I know what I am going to do next? No not necessarily, but I do have ideas. Please ask me the hard questions and I will do my best to answer them.
