For the entirety of my life I have said I’ve wanted someone to fight for me, I mean it’s pretty typical I grew up watching things like Disney princess movies, Twilight, Breakfast at Tiffany’s and Dirty Dancing. What do these have in common? Someone fighting for someone’s rights, love, freedoms, etc. I would work myself up about this and how I just wanted someone to choose me. So dramatic if you know me you know.
I realized for myself today at 3:00 am this very Happy Easter that someone did fight for me, and continues to fight for me daily. Again I know cliche. “Wow, T good job, you’ve only been hearing that since Awanas.” Yeah I have been hearing this literally my whole life, Jesus fought for me and won so long ago. That has all been head knowledge, heart knowledge is a whole another thing, but i’m starting to tie them together.
I have always known God loves His kids, but I never really put myself in that group, I told the people I loved how loved they were but never reminded myself. Basically Papa has been making very clear how loved I am and how I need to just accept it from Him, others and myself. The thought of Jesus dying on the cross came to mind and where I would be in this situation, Y’all I want to say I would be punching guards, tripping the pharisees, and slapping scoffers but if I’m honest I most likely would have been a scoffer. It makes me sick, but it’s true flesh is wack. WE ARE SO FLESH. The cool thing is that Jesus looked at all of the evil people who were cursing Him, hitting Him, and killing Him and prayed for them. I laid in my bed the other night Thanked God that I wasn’t Jesus because if I would have been spit on.. I would have dropped that cross real quick and said, “Never mind just take me home they ain’t worth it.” So I’m just going to thank Him again. God thank you for sending your son who looked at each of us and said, “they’re worth it, even though they’re going to continually mess up and mess up big time they are worth this pain.” Thank you for loving us enough and wanting us with you forever. Thank you choosing us and seeing past what the human eye can’t. We are so unbelievably lucky, and you know all too well so undeserving.
Right now I am learning that I am fought for daily and how I don’t need to be saved because I already was, by a man who loves me more than even imaginable. a man who sees the absolute worst in people, but makes beautiful things out of it. Now I am asking Papa to remind me of the freedom He has so freely given me, and how to dance in it.
Happy Easter, everyone! I hope you make some sweet memories today with family and friends. I can’t wait to hear all about it when I get home in 41 days!!
P.S. I talked to Dad today, and he asked for a shout out. He never fails to remind me how missed I am or make me smile. so shout out to you Pops! Hope you have a good day, and eat some kit-kats for me.
